연우 ¦ Sae

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however, I've been also pondering about Zenas wearing Scarlet Redeemer because it's genuinely my favourite coating—and even tho I'm grateful it was free so I could get my hands on it, I'm still pissed it wasn't a sfx one— but, that aside, i just love it a bit too much aside from Ivy Palefire. so, yeah, Zenas wearing that specific coating would look really good and Lee would love it, too.

I know the mainland version it's still up and, will most likely, remain for a while—they even updated the battle pass and are selling new merchandise. but I can't help but feel sad regardless, of course. I believe the reason why the other servers are going down it's partially due to the lack of proper advertising, lack of proper administration and, i also think, lack of attention from the mainland side. The game is on a "energy saving mode" but it's due to the staff working on new game, not because the game is doing bad per se, but you know, there's still some bitterness. I wish they could, at least, leave us an offline version but I highly doubt so.

some part of me also believes ash echoes was a "test" as the company is not known for making gacha games as far as I know, but i know AE did amazing and not as "niche" as it is on the global side, precisely because the advertising is better, the attention put it's better. but, in any case, the global side going eos won't change no matter how much we ask them to keep it lol.

what I share here, or on twitter, is for myself. because I just want a safe place where I can just pour my thoughts without having to care if they're "wrong" or not. I just kind of forget people can perceive me outside of my own bubble and, if i'm being honest, I do not wish to be perceived either—i know I use tags for my writings but the chance of someone finding them it's rather low, so I never cared. however, I might just use only my own yume tag for ease access on my side.

this is, in fact, the very first video i recorded of this voiceline, jan 3, 2024. im emotional. also excuse the quality, my potato phone at that time was holding onto its dear life lol

anyway, my point was —and still is— how Hyperreal is a more emotional mature version of Lee, to put it in a way. I've said it one here a few years ago..? the different between each of his frame—while he, physically, can't grow older and, therefore, will remain with the exact same face he was when he turned into a Construct, that physical maturity won't technically show up. However, you can still "see" how much he grew emotionally even tho it's not something tangible per se, you get me?

As I said on that one post here how Palefire is still that teenage version who had to, by brute force, "grow" up and take care of his sick brother, by doing whatever it needed to survive, working in a dangerous field, getting betrayed, having to "move on" so easily and, eventually, giving up his humanity in order to keep his brother alive. So Palefire was a mirror of that self—cold, distant, with trust issues and incapable of expressing his feelings openly. Then you have Entropy, and I believe he was in the process of still learning how to be more open, but regardless you can see how much he already trusted his teammates (something that started after that Tifa incident, imo), he could—slowly— let go of those unhealthy habits and accepted the undeniable fact he was not alone anymore, that it was okay to trust them because they were good, they were people worth of his trust, he could rely on them and didn't need to carry everything himself.

And, ultimately, Hyperreal. Again, he still look young and will forever look the same, but his emotional maturity was palpable this time. He fully learnt it was okay to be vulnerable around those whom he trusted, he understood it was okay to talk about what was bothering him, what made him angry, sad, happy—it was okay to be himself without having to keep his guard so high all the time. He was allowed to be. You can see he is more open and straightforward about what he wants, his wishes; he use his words better, he express himself more freely because he found a place where he was accepted, understood and cared for.