temperedIvories

so many games i want to make but my motivation is so fleeting

i hate doctors i hate pharmacies i hate the medical industry i hate the mental hospitals i hate allllllllllllllll of it 6 hours of waiting in a cold silent room for 2 weeks of meds, next available appointment was well beyond the point where i'd run out of the meds keeping me stable, and now they're putting me on some other bullshit and my new meds werent at the pharmacy when i went to pick them up so now i just have half of the meds im supposed to be taking instead of all of them for the foreseeable future.

crazy how the three people who ultimately "defeated" lord english were like the ultimate fuck you to everything le stands for John - freedom incarnate in a world where free will and existence itself can not meaningfully interact. Alt Calliope - an incarnation of his sister, one who managed to predominate and consume his soul in her timeline, the one responsible for his demise now as well. and Davepeta - someone who will not conform to le's rigid notions of identity and gender, and an entity almost similar in nature to lord english, a composite of many beings including the heart and time aspects, but in davepeta both identities can coexist and prosper, whereas lord english is caliborn's will imposed on the souls of his components.

always blow ur smoke into the closet so uou can get the beasts high

whoever told me gms was easier than lace2 was a fucking liar her attacks are easier to dodge but like. somehow im still dying more often??? im going for twisted child ending too so id have beaten her long ago if i was kinder to myself

once i finish transcribing every pesterlog into google docs organized by character and page its over for all of you i am going to write so much fanfiction it will be insane