Tejumade_A

On the days that the sky sheds it’s tears I shed mine in tandem Seeking solace in the cover up Finding comfort in the realisation that I’m not alone afterall. The constantly revolting emotions Exploding after the build up Finally refusing to be subdued any longer. They demand to be felt and expressed. In between heaves, As the tears find their path down my cheeks, One after the…

I think, I have now come to accept. That these feelings that I have for you, Are just that, Feelings. In as much as I wish they would manifest into a fairytale ending, A happily ever after. I am convinced that our own version of events aren’t in line with that. This is different. This ends in a burn out. Feelings that do not get the advantage of a home, They do not get to exist outside…

I must admit, I don’t always choose those who choose me. Because my heart hastily makes decisions on its own, Without consulting me, Forgetting that without my guidance, It is simply a blind man stirring a ship. An unmitigated disaster waiting to happen. Functioning like a child, Finding it’s feet in stormy waters. A combination of mismatched steps, A fall that cannot be avoided. My…

Is it weird that I still wonder what you’re up to? As I go about my days, My mind wanders, My thoughts linger. I wonder where you are, I wonder if you spent another night questioning, Asking yourself why you sabotaged the best thing you ever acquired, Something oh so beautiful. When your lights turn out, do the shadows linger? Forcing you to stay awake, Reminiscing and wishing that you…

You keep me up at night And not in ways that I wish Thoughts of what could be Things that would never be Chasing sleep as though it were the enemy Of what use is sleep if I’d be bamboozled Bamboozled with the reality that I never get to experience you in ways that I wish The fear of being reminded of this failure as soon as I close my eyes Has inherently transformed me into a nocturnal…

I am so scared. So scared that I might never get to experience, Experience the certainty that comes with you being mine. Mine alone. Mine to have. To hold. To love. Fiercely. I might never get the assurance of you belonging to me. Of you being my person. For as long as we both will it. That luxury is one that I might never get. I might never get to experience the elation of being your…

Dear sweet girl, Be you, unapologetically Laugh, loudly Wholly, Unashamed. Love, fully Without fear. Eat your heart out, To your satisfaction. Let the colours in your hair be as loud as your laugh. Let your braids be as long as your adventurous spirit. Wear dresses as radiant and as bright as your smile. Be loud. Be bold. Be courageous. Always remember that you matter, And you…

Some truths have to be spoken to be real, But not this one, Unspoken. I can hear it when the sun shines through the gloomy clouds, When the breeze bursts through humid unmoving weather, When the stiffness of the day in unending. In the silence, I can hear this loud, And clear, Crisp voices, Affirming. Without words uttered, Mouths unmoved, I can hear it.

There’s this happiness that you bring, That lights me up, Sets the world up in sunset hues, And golden tinges. The warmth radiating from your being, Your presence, All encompassing, Covers me up like the sun thawing out leftover snow. You, my love, are magnificent. You carry the power of constellations in your eyes.

You’re the one designed for me. Meeting you felt like stars aligning. Falling asleep next to you, Our heartbeats synchronizing, Almost as though even our subconscious were in sync. A connection that we have no control over. We’ve successfully blurred the lines, From the initial “hi” and “hello” To nonstop conversations. Finding answers to lifelong questions between your lips. You’re the…

In between hushed conversations, Full belly laughs, Teary confessions, Secret hand gestures And intense eye contact. There exists a lifetime of untold stories, Catalogues of tales that words couldn’t possibly capture, There are not enough words in the English language to fully express or describe, The unspoken declarations, The silent promises, Layers upon layers of our story, That can…

eyi ti mo yan

You know when our fingers touch, I don’t feel sparks, No dramatic fireworks. When my fingers graze yours, It feels like coming home. A welcoming, overwhelming feeling, The warmth goes deeper than just the fingers. I can feel your comfort from your touch, A sense of home and togetherness. I’ll take that over fireworks, I’ll take that over sparks and whatever else. I’ll take you with your…

No rules No caution No discretion No reservations I want to fall; wholeheartedly Drown in your essence And then when I’m flailing around, gasping for air, seeking for something solid to keep me grounded Your hands shall still me Your presence shall calm my racing heart The stillness: an answer to my question.

Even before I could put a name to it I waited for you And now, here you are In all of the glory that God reserved for me When he was whispering “patience, Tejumade” He was sending you my way And now, with you present There’s an overwhelming sense of accuracy Something right Something fulfilling And I’d be a fool to not be thankful for the journey that brought you to me At the end of a storm,…

I am not sorry for the mismatch of souls that led me to you That left me bare for your taking The missed opportunities that positioned me in your line of sight The lost loves that made it so that I was seeking I do not need apologies for the disappointments and broken hearts that left me wanting I do not seek penance for the men that did not want me Nor do I seek revenge for the men that wanted…

If there ever was one place I wanted to remain, Forever, It’d be in your arms. Tightly nuzzled in, Chasing warmth, Watching as you fight sleep, Until your breath slowly starts evening out. But your fingers never untangling from their position Comfortably nestled around my waist As if now that they’ve found a home They refuse to be moved.

Nobody ever talks about the inbetween The spaces between “I love you” and “I can’t wait to see you.” The anxiety that encapsulates your entire being during the periods of long silences The emptiness that sometimes overwhelms you Has you thinking, questioning if what you feel in your heart is solid enough to keep you going You hear about the long hugs after time apart and the intense kisses at the…