Golden Fixation

{ trigger warnings: violence, noncon/dubcon implications }  originally from memeroundups but the post has been deleted so we’re reposting it.

“You’d do well to pay. It’s in your best interest.“

“We have ways of making you talk.”

“The moment you came to us, we owned you.”

“I’m not guarding the boss’s kid to play babysitter. Sit and behave.”

“You run your mouth again and see what happens.”

“I don’t care how tired you are, you don’t turn down clients until I say you can.”

“Didn’t think I’d catch you, eh? Run away again, and I’ll break your legs.”

“That was your first kill, you should feel proud. Hey… you don’t look so good…”

“I don’t know what kind of ideas you’re getting but remember this… without me, you’re nothing.”

“The world will eat you if you let it. That’s why it’s everyone for themselves. But here, you’ve got loyalty.”

“Don’t be ungrateful… on your own with this kind of city, you’d be laying face down on a ditch if he/she hadn’t found you.”

“You used to be such a good kid… glad I was able to break that out of you.”

“I think there’s a mole in our operations… and you don’t exactly seem innocent to me.”

“There’s no out. Even if you tried to kill yourself, we’ll just lock you up.”

“Consider this a ‘gentle’ reminder of respect when speaking to me.”

“Don’t worry, you’ll start to enjoy it soon enough.”

“You might be a ruthless brute, but you’re ‘my’ ruthless brute.”

“Kill him/her.”

“They don’t wanna pay? Burn their house down.”

“Don’t you know? You’re the gang’s ‘pet’.”

“I think they’ve earned their lesson, you can stop hitting him/her now.”

“Do you honestly intend to get this far without getting your hands dirty?”

“He’s/she’s squirming around too much, drug them.”

“Far as you know, I’m the best thing that’s ever happened to you.”

“I’m sick of this, I want out.”

“N-no… I… I didn’t want to kill him.”

“I’m through with being your fucking lap dog.”

“People wanna kill me in my sleep…”

“I’m tired of being numb and desensitized. I’m tired of killing before I eat a goddamn breakfast like nothing happened. I’m tired of this life.”

“If anything happens, I’ll take the blame. And don’t you dare to try to put it all on you this time, don’t even fucking think about it.”

“I don’t care if my demands are silly, if you don’t do them, then your boss won’t be pleased if I suddenly got ‘injured’ under your watch.

“Do you even know what you started? The riot and upcoming gang war will be beyond what your fucking punk ass can handle!”

“How about we make a deal?”

“Oh don’t worry, I won’t make a move anytime soon, but I’ll be watching you.”

“Are you willing to take a bullet for me?”

“I don’t know if I’m willing to forgive you just yet. Maybe if I throw another punch…”

“I’m a person, and not someone for you to order around.”

“You think you’re hot shit, but I’m the one who does your dirty work.”

“You honestly believed I would never turn against you?”

“M-my leg… it’s shot, I can’t walk…”

“I ran away, but they’ll be looking for me I know it.”

“You don’t need to get involved. Just walk away.”

“Who said not to mix business with pleasure? Let’s talk this over with a date…”

“If they find out I’m sleeping with you, they’ll kill me.”

“Don’t worry, I heard human trafficking isn’t so bad. At least they’re not harvesting your organs.”

“Please, let me go. I won’t do it again, please.”

“It was simply a mistake on my part, it won’t happen again. I promise.”

“No no, I’m not interested in your friends. I want you. Give yourself over, and they’ll be safe.”

“You can sell me, but I’ll fight it with every fiber of my being.”

“Hey hey, are you passing out? Come on, tell me names and I’ll stop the beatings.”

“I trusted you. You were the only one I trusted, and for what? So you can stab my back?”

“I can’t believe what you’re doing! Untie me, now. Do you have any idea what deep shit you’re in?!”

“Just do what you’re told, like you always do.”

“I know you’ve been tailing me.”

“Care to explain why you were attempting to kidnap me?”

“You know, you’re always such a fucking thorn on my side. But laying on the ground, beaten and helpless, you ain’t lookin’ half bad…”

“Alright, you just quietly sit there on that chair lookin’ pretty. I’ll go collect your ransom.”

“Did you just hit me, you fucking piece of-”

“We can run away together.”

“Come on, let me help you!”

“Then you’ll be going to the highest bidder. Grand, eh? Ready for the auction?”

“I don’t care what kind of best you have, you’re okay in my book.”

“Shit, they weren’t supposed to die. Alright, we gotta cover this up. Grab that body.”

But why would I want to do a thing like that?

I chose something else.

The reasons? There are no reasons.

Who needs reasons when you’ve got heroin?

People think it’s all about misery and desperation and death and all that shite, which is not to be ignored, but what they forget is the pleasure of it all.

Pure as the driven snow, that shit.

We’re not fucking stupid. At least we’re not that fucking stupid.

No way would I poison my body with that shite.

Every chance you’ve had, you’ve blown it.

Never again. I’m off the skag.

I’m finished with that shite.

Gonna do it right this time. Gonna get it sorted out, get off it for good.

I’m sure I’ve heard that one before.

He’s always been lacking in moral fiber.

I want a fucking hit.

That’s all I’ve got. Take it or leave it.

Are you feeling better now then?

For all the good they’ve done, I might as well have stuck them up my arse.

Under the circumstances I’ll settle for anywhere.

I could hardly bear to look at them.

Sneaky fucker, don’t you think?

At one point you’ve got it, then you lose it, and it’s gone forever.

In your heart you kind of know that although it sounds alright, it’s actually just shite.

So what is the point you’re trying to make?

So we all get old, we can’t hack it any more and that’s it?

Do you see the beast? Have you got it in your sights?

For a vegetarian, you’re a fucking evil shot.

If they think you’re not trying, you’re in trouble.

A little dab of speed is just the ticket.

There’s too much discrimination in this town.

People get all hung up on details, like which school did I go to? How many grades did I get? Could be like six. Could be none. It’s not important.

Yeah, cool, whatever you say. You’re the man, the dude in the chair.

For me, it’s got to be the best, or it’s nothing at all.

I’m doing my best to lose.

Excuse me. I don’t mean to harass you, but I was very impressed with the capable and stylish manner in which you dealt with that situation.

I’ll come back with you if you like, but I’m not promising anything.

I expect you to be a considerate and thoughtful lover. Generous but firm. Failure on your part to live up to these very reasonable expectations will result in swift resumption of a non-sex situation.

You can sleep on the sofa in the hall or go home. It’s up to you.

Do you know what they do to people like me inside?

It’s a shite state of affairs to be in and all the fresh air in the world won’t make any fucking difference!

It looks easy, this, but it’s not.

Living like this is a full-time business.

She told me where to go and no fucking mistake.

I want to try it. You’re always going on about how it’s the ultimate hit.

Come on, I’m a fucking adult. I can find out for myself.

Personality. I mean, that’s what counts, right?

We took morphine, diamorphine, cyclozine, codeine, temazepam, nitrazepam, phenobarbitone, and sodium amytal, dextropropoxyphene, methadone, nalbuphine, pethidine, pentazocine, buprenorphine, dextromoramide, chlormethiazole.

We would’ve injected vitamin C if only they’d made it illegal.

Nothing could have been further from the truth.

No matter how much you stash or how much you steal, you never have enough.

You’re nothing but trouble to me, but I still love you.

You’d better clean up your fucking act, sunshine. Cut that shite out forever.

There’s better things than the needle.

If that’s not your fault then I don’t know what is.

I’ll proceed directly to the intravenous injection of hard drugs, please.

I don’t feel the sickness yet, but it’s in the post, that’s for sure.

That only made you worse, you said so yourself.

You sweat that shite out of your system, ’cause if I come back and it’s still here I’ll fucking kick it out.

But there comes a time when you have to turn your back on all that nonsense and just say no.

You’ve got to find something new.

One thousand years from now, there’ll be no guys and no girls, just wankers. Sounds great to me.

If you ask me, we’re heterosexual by default not by decision. It’s just a question of who you fancy. It’s all about aesthetics. And it’s fuck-all to do with morality.

Fucking listen to me, you piece of junkie shit.

You’ve already been to jail. What’s the deal? You like it so much you want to go back?

I just want the money.

There’s final hits and final hits. What kind is this?

I’d just like to say, it’s been a pleasure haggling with you.

Now I’ve justified this to myself in all sorts of ways.

It wasn’t a big deal, just a minor betrayal.

He’d have done the same to me if he’d only thought of it first.

The truth is that I’m a bad person.

That’s going to change. I’m going to change.

I’m looking forward to it already.

⧼   y a m i  m a l i k   &   m a l i k  i s h t a r   ⧽