was feeling zonked today so i watched fiona michael lindsay fredo matt jeremy and gav play fibbage 3. call that self care ❤️

so i took a break from rt for a few months and recently started catching up on all their vids because i’ve been into rt/ah since i was a freshman in high school and i always come back to them. i’m now a junior in college and i’m devastated. i dressed up as fahc vagabond for halloween when i was 15. i bought merch with my first paycheck. rooster teeth feels like home to me. achievement hunter is my greatest comfort and to think he’s been a part of it all along. i would’ve have bet everything that ryan was a genuinely amazing guy. i had such blind faith in the core 6 from Ray days and it’s extended to everyone since he left to fiona, and even beyond that, to funhaus, and right now i feel an actual ache in my chest thinking while i was 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20 years old i thought he was this amazing guy, like i’m not even sure how to word this but i in my heart thought ryan could do no wrong, when he was cheating on his wife preying on young community members.