Your Happy Ending:

And all I can say is that, I never did

The pain is still there every day, just like it was when I first realized I was in love with him and the gravity of the situation I was facing

I'll love him for the rest of my life. I know it. Like I've never loved anyone else. Whether he loved me back is something ill never find out. But he's a married man and he has a child and because of that, all I know is that there is no scenario in my head that I can dream up where this could ever realistically workout if he did. Societal consequences would be too great. And what if he never loved me at all? That's even more painful, to know I ache for him every second, every hour, every day. A constant pain in my heart. Knowing he will never know what it is like, knowing he will never love me like that. Never miss me.

That's almost enough to kill me slowly.

Me:

Goes to a restaurant with family: imagines sitting with him and romantically eating something together.

Goes to a hotel: imagines doing fun things with him in bed.

Goes to a clothing store: imagines buying clothes for him.

Goes to school: imagines being alone with him and kiss him.

Goes to the bathroom: imagines him naked and shower together.

Goes to anywhere: imagines being with him.

Goes to bed: imagines sleeping with him.

Goes to dreamland: imagines how our relationship will be and dreams about him.

Loving Wolves

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