Recurring Chapters

#g - ex-teacher, forever-feels

#r - a year older than g. Boyfriend

#P1 - ex boss (noticed, but FUCK THIS GUY UGH!)

#doodle - my art about my experience

I dreamed about him wanting to meet me at a cafe for a chai latte and the comfort of seeing him up close again is lingering with me.

the guilt never ends because I live in my cozy tastefully decorated dorm but my family still lives in poverty where the house is barely held together sigh. It can’t be helped with all my siblings and my moms bad habits that eat into my dads wallet. I wish I was established enough to buy my family a home that is in good condition so every shower and sleep and breath is comfortable.

I have to stay focused on studies if I want it to happen, I know. I think I lost sight of that determination when I was getting so busy and comfortable with life on campus. I worked so hard and spent as much time at school as I possibly could back then, just to get away and forgot why I worked so hard to get here.

Honestly it opens my eyes as to why I was so attached to g from a distance, then to my boyfriend r despite his age since he had all to offer what I didn’t have.