deception; at it's best

How do you continue to live when your heart is empty and black? How can I keep going knowing I'm the cause for all this pain? How do I move on without thinking of the awful things I did to you? How do I come to terms that you'll find someone better and I'll be alone forever?

I wish I could just fall off the planet like I never existed.

He's so convinced I don't care. We've not been together for over two weeks and my heart has been breaking every day since. I know my actions show of a person who doesn't or never cared, but in truth..that's my coping mechanism for heart break. It may seem like I've moved on, but in reality..I'm just trying to survive. I've lost all chance and I've finally come to terms (again). I just hope that he isn't damaged forever and he will learn to love again. He deserves it, but I don't.

I just wish I could tell him I love him, without him cringing at the fact.

Very pleased with my nails. 😍🦄

Killing my lungs, one cig at a time.