a stroll through various phases of sanity

This gif set right here is worth not eating for a fucking month.

and like honestly? i have anorexia but this is why i constantly talk about the dangers of the “health and fitness” industry and diet culture bc we have essentially normalized certain symptoms of disordered eating but it’s ok if it’s under the guise of health i guess???

like how is calling it “clean” eating NOT a way to moralize food

how is intermittent fasting NOT the same thing as skipping meals

how come when i buy clothes that don’t fit, it’s something i have to tell my therapist about because it means i am putting pressure on myself to fit into them, but if a “normal” person does it then it’s just motivation for them?

where is the fucking line???

and more importantly when are we going to start acknowledging that the entire world is pro-ana but that’s too harsh of a description so we slap some health buzzwords on it to make it palatable

when are we going to take responsibility for encouraging disordered behavior instead of labeling those of us with EDs as the crazy/imbalanced ones

I had a girl try to get at me one time who said she was 21 and ended up being 17. When I found out her real age I ceased communication and dead the shit immediately. She kept trying to contact me because she couldn’t wrap her mind around it…saying she was “grown” and that she’s “been with older women before,” like that makes it okay.

° It’s a known fact you’ll always be cold. But not how cold. I can take a hot shower and lie under two blankets and still be cold to the bone.

° You’ll get weak. I’ve always been weak in my arms but right now I can’t even carry a chair without my muscles aching.

° My back hurts. All the time. My knees do too, I feel like I’ve aged 4 years in the span of 1.

° Don’t listen to sweetspo. You won’t look in the mirror at your goal weight and be skinny. You just won’t see it. I’ve lost 5kg and don’t see a difference.

° You won’t be proud when someone worries about your food. You will be defensive and angry and grumpy. You don’t want them to know.

° You’ll feel guilty. About eating too much and doing too little. But most of all keeping a huge secret from anyone who cares about you.

° You can’t concentrate on anything else than food.

° Are you depressed and anxious??? Great! It’ll increase.

° It won’t ever be enough.

° I can’t stop. I can’t.

° You’ll freak out about fun things. About normal things. Christmas, eating dinner with friends, going out.

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