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Per this comment in reponse from the funny and kind @tarzinnia
Vincenzo Cassano might assert that a similar mental construct occurs when he spies the strap of Hong Cha-young's brassière after it has slipped from underneath her dress to her arm. Intentional? A mere annoyance she hasn't bothered to correct? Whatever the case, he finds the scene captivating and difficult to dismiss.
And so...
It's one of those miserably hot August days she'd warned him about but that he hadn't taken as seriously as perhaps was warranted.
He's used to heat.
Milan gets oppressively hot and humid in July and August.
Muggy.
Downright muggy, even - something which makes unpleasant wearing his daily attire, even in the very lightest of Booralro wool.
But it's nothing like this.
Seoul in August is insufferable.
In Seoul's version of August, it's like someone managed to combine a blast furnace and a steam room - hot, wet, umoving air that clings to every surface and stifles every avenue of relief.
He doesn't recall much of his childhood and certainly not being routinely suffocated each summer, so he wonders if it's climate change or the price of progress - the city's multitude shiny new buildings and poured concrete.
Or just another flavor of the bad luck Seoul seems to bring him.
Though no one else seems surprised by the persistent misery that enshrouds them.
They're all grimly accepting of it in a way he simply cannot be.
Not even accepting - oblivious.
He's never more than about five minutes away from heat stroke at any given time, but he saw someone yesterday in a black fucking peacoat, out for a walk at the height of the day like none of this was happening.
Nam Joon Sung continues to show up in that horrid beige 1980s shell he favors and thick knitted vests over long sleeved button down shirts.
His erstwhile co-counsel, who usually strikes him as only slightly less crazy, seems to be splitting the difference - no outer layers but still in her usual well-tailored suits.
This week's, though, he's noticed, are made of fresco wools and light tweeds, and her usual knit turtlenecks and crisply ironed button-downs have been replaced by lighter-weight camisoles in fabrics that breathe.
Not that he looks.
Well, he looks, of course, but he's always been something of a clotheshorse and anyway there's a socio-geo-meteorological phenomenon unfolding around him that requires research.
Today, however, she seems to have been at last overcome.
She'd stood suddenly thirty minutes ago and yanked each arm free of her blazer in a huff before tossing at the old hat rack of her father's that stands beside the supply closet door.
He'd eyed the poor thing for as long as he could, hanging there haphazardly, its soft-napped fabric wrinkling steadily and untidily, until he couldn't stand it anymore and rose to go and put it on a proper hanger.
On the way back is when he'd encountered his first...problem.
Distraction, really.
She was wearing silk.
Which, and yes, true, he has that...thing about women in silk that makes his fingers fucking itch.
But this isn't that kind of silk.
It's wholesome.
Appropriate.
Tame.
A simple cream-colored shell with a pretty drape and a high neckline with two little mother-of-pearl mock buttons at its collar.
But.
It's sleeveless.
Her arms are bare.
And he realizes on his way back to his desk- and hopefully quickly enough that she doesn't notice him doing it - that he's never seen this much skin before.
Though his footsteps stutter as he's retreating.
She makes a judgmental, affronted noise, and for a moment he feels his soul try to escape his body at the notion of a rare slip of his being caught.
Until he realizes it's his fastidiousness she's playing at seeming affronted by and not...
He hazards a glance her way to receive - gratefully - her overdone eyeroll.
And then uses it as cover to look once more.
They're toned, her arms.
Wiry but strong.
That's all he's stuck on here, yes.
All he's looking to confirm.
And only because she claims like she does so often - vigorously and vociferously - that strength training is a waste of time. That all she does is alternate jogging days with aerial yoga.
He trains his attention onto the desk he's returning to.
Though the image is seared, now, into his mind and is refusing to be so easily stifled.
Pretty shoulders that make a graceful curve from her neck to beneath the silk. The place where they emerge again, pale, creamy skin, stretching taut where it hugs a well defined deltoid and dips in at the little curve between it and her bicep.
The flex of her brachialis, straining as she'd reached forward for a pen.
He clenches his jaw and sits again, determined to lose sight of it all by drowning his eyes back in the a real estate ownership database she's 'assigned' him to comb through this afternoon.
It works.
For ten minutes.
Which is when she makes an anguished noise and rises again suddenly, stalking off in the direction of her coat, still on the hat rack but hanging, now, from where he'd arranged it on the hanger.
He expects her to yank it free and shrug back into it.
Stomp out of the office and come return in ten minutes with two cans of chemically-laden, semi-medicinal drinks from the shitty little convenience store across the plaza.
Pretend to offer him one she must know he'll refuse, and then drink both herself.
But she bypasses the coat and disappears through the door of the supply closet.
He watches, puzzling at her objective, since all he's seen in that room is three dead printers, a rotary-dial phone, and shelves of dusty accordion files from a decade or more ago, arranged in an order only Nam Joo Sung can discern.
Unfortunately, her retreat affords him a brief glimpse of another pretty button at the nape of her neck.
Which gathers together shiny fabric beneath the low knot she's tied her hair up.
Which is just above an opening he wouldn't have expected to span quite so far down her back, given the almost matronly cut of the front neckline.
Which, when she reaches her arms overhead to stretch her neck, gapes a little.
As does he.
He huffs out a breath of disgust with himself and refocuses on the list of liens on his screen.
This deflection doesn't last long, though, as there's a quiet crash, another, and then the sound of protracted struggling.
It takes him a few seconds longer than it normally would to rise to help.
He ignores the reasons why and buttons his coat on his way to triage.
At least he'll look pulled together and polite.
Innocent.
He plays that well.
Not so much with her these days, but -
And then she nearly collides with him, exiting the door just as he arrives to it, grappling with her hold on the yellowed old plastic base of an oversized desk fan.
His hands take it from hers, and he raises his eyebrows - where?.
She answers it with a tilt of her chin in the direction of her desk over his left shoulder - over there.
"It swivels," she adds, as she steps back to give him room to turn with the enormous thing. "Or it used to, anyway. It's seven hundred years old and probably broken. Abeoji would never buy anything new or throw anything out that had even the hope of redemption."
He smiles at the man's memory and the fond chagrin in her tone, even as the electrical cord slurps free to nearly trip him up as he moves.
He sets it on the corner of her desk that's closest to his.
"I'm going to pass out if we can't get some air moving in here," she adds from heat behind him, sounding suddenly defensive. "Aren't you hot?"
"No," he answers, not because it's true but because it's weird, still, to be on the same page as her as often as they are.
Weird and...
"You're sweating," she counters, as he carefully sets the thing down. "Right along your hairline."
A fingertip begins to draw itself along the top of his collar, and he nearly jumps at the sensation.
"You're making me haul things around when it's 40°C outside and in," he cuts back, trying to sound sullen and not so... "Is there an outlet somewhere?"
His answer is the cord being snapped free from his hands.
He sighs inwardly at the way he chose petulance as cover and then goes back to his desk.
Sits and watches her kick both shoes off her feet and drop to her knees on the floor.
When she's halfway under her desk, he pulls his pocket square free and dabs quickly at his neck and brow.
He just manages to fold it tidily and restow it before she shimmies back out from underneath as the fan's motor begins to spool up.
"Aish," she snaps, as the gale scatters every which way the top dozen or so papers sitting in front of it in an open folder.
He rises again and helps her retrieve each.
The fan, proving her prediction, is not rotating, so he checks its base for knobs or buttons as she moves the folder and re-rights the pile.
"I'm telling you, it's probably broken," she says, putting one of Yu Chan's glass ashtrays on top of the stack. "If there was even a scintilla of utility left in something, he'd never toss it out. Even though he had the mechanical aptitude of a pigeon. No offense..."
He ignore the jab - he's not fucking friends with a bird - but stops looking, because he's flipped and turned all the controls there are and has decided she's right.
He trains the fan a little more squarely towards her sea and moves to lean against the corner of her desk - preen a little, because he's been selfless and chivalrous.
When she takes her seat and swivels to face him, he nearly chokes.
And then lace.
And this time, it's not the sheen of the pretty cream fabric or the soft skin or strong muscles that does him in.
It's satin.
Fuck, and not even very much of it, just a scant little bit, but what he does see is Guipure and fine-boned and translucent and delicate and soft and with a tiny little bow where it meets the errant strap drooped down around her arm.
Oh.
And it is blood fucking red.
It is quiet for way, way, way too long after that, and it takes nearly every ounce of his usually unflagging self-control to force his eyes away from where they stuck to meet hers.
As must be what disappears where he cannot see.
His mouth goes instantly dry.
When he does, she looks...amused?
Confused?
Disgusted?
Triumphant?
Fuck, he can't tell.
"I'm fine," he says, even as the pulse hammering in his ears screams that he's anything but.
"You're not really going to stand there and pretend you don't think it's hot," she says, grinning as the chair's back creaks while she settles deeper into it.
The strap hanging at her deltoid slip a little further down.
The temperature, he reminds himself.
Is what she means by her question.
She scoffs.
"You sound like you're dying," she adds, eyes dropping down to trace down the column of his neck in a way that is decidedly unhelpful. "You look hot. You're sweating."
He ends his lean abruptly.
Thinks fast enough to channel his motion into turning, like he's heading to the small refrigerator around the corner from the coffee pot.
And not trying to keep her from noticing the ludicrously inappropriate and ill-timed beginnings of an erection he's now got to contend with.
"Water," he offers, weakly.
"Yes please," she answers him.
He lets his eyes close and breathes in - slowly - through his nose.
Releases it a moment later through his mouth.
How does the color not show through that cream, he wonders.
The silk is thin, its color light.
He shakes his head again free of irrelevant prurience and opens the door to retrieve the bottles.
And the red - that fucking red - is dark and vibrant and its lace is -
He opens the cap of one, and the effort douses his libidinous impulses in enough purpose that he's able to walk back her way without embarrassing himself.
When he arrives, the strap still hangs there, its red slicing a loose-looping arc around the pale of her bicep.
"I can move it, if you want," she says, suddenly, and his eyes snap instantly and guility from the pretty little taunting bow to her face.
Is this on purpose?
That same something from before is stronger but no less inscrutable and dancing across it.
Wait.
Is she testing him, then?
The woman is bombastic, sure, but also anything but uncareful.
Or crass.
Seeing if he...seeing what?
If he'd notice?
What he'd say?
What he'd do?
Whether this might be the thing to finally fucking break his -
"The fan," she supplies, somewhat pointedly, eyes sparkling as they dart around his face, and dio mio, hopes it's just confusion she's seeing there.
"We can set up a schedule," she continues. "Five minutes with it facing me, five facing you..."
See, he's an idiot.
It's as simple as that.
Her strap has fallen, he's noticed, she has not, and now he's acting bizarrely while she's wondering why.
The only thing which has made anything more complicated is that he is a fucking deviant, apparently, and has this inconvenient predisposition to...
"I'm fine," he says, as he leans across her desk to set the bottle within her reach. "It's moving air in here, which is all I need."
"Told you you were hot," she crows as he retreats, moving back to the safety of a desk that doesn't face hers.
He nearly forgets about both the heat and her clothing and manages to find seven other buildings in Seoul that Babel's had a disregarded entity acquire in the last three months.
When she appears suddenly beside him.
He's never met anyone less concerned with personal space.
She's leans, like he'd been doing, against his desk, and smugly, too.
Only she is standing much closer to him, in that way she does.
Or with whom maintaining distance is more essential.
He quickly confirms that her wardrobe is still very temptingly in the slightest state of disarray.
"You look hungry," she says, when his eyes force themselves back to hers.
Either way, something inside him strains.
And, fuck, he's questioning again whether this might be a ruse of hers.
A game she's playing at his idiotic expense.
Her eyebrows arch every so slightly higher.
He stands.
And then that something snaps.
Their eyes stay locked.
There's distance, still, between them, when he does, but not much of it.
And then his right hand moves.
Rises up the column of her arm, fingers curled around its curve but with a only hair's breadth of distance still between them.
He knows their aim.
That band of red.
But he has no fucking idea what it'll do when it arrives there.
Right it and end this inapproriate and probably unwanted flight of fancy?
Or maybe he'll just let his fingers hook themselves around it and...
There's a noise at the door, and then the familliar clattering of Cheetah's creaky old frame.
"They approved the motion for a stay," Joo Sung announces, as Cha Young turns and starts towards the room's conference table. "It's nearly afternoon - should we order in for lunch?"
"Hong Byeonhosa-nim," Joo Sung says, when Cheetah is parked and he's halfway to the table she's standing beside. "Your -"
"We were just talking about taking a break," she says, sounding much more casual than Vincenzo feels.
He tries to make a noise that resembles casual assent, watching her stop at the table, chooses, and then lift a folder at random to pretend to page through.
He pantomimes sliding something up his own arm and then politely averts his eyes.
"Oh," she says, raising her hand and turning away from him to fix it.
While looking straight at Vincenzo.
Slowly, she crooks one finger around the scarlet band, easing it slowly up her arm and then back beneath the cream-colored silk.
Her eyes stay locked on his, and for a moment, her smile is anything but inscrutable.
@inzaghisgirlfriend --I cannot recall if it was one of yours, and my memory is rather foggy about it (meaning I haven't done a deep search on AO3 to see if it's still there or has been deleted and regardless it was quite a while back) but there was a great fic I read in the fandom that had a rather Groundhog Day similarity to it. You know, where you wake up and each day is kinda the same but it isn't?
Sometimes that is what these two characters and this drama do to one's brain. All it takes is one moment and then it appears: a scene, a turn of phrase, an image that won't let go. The Gatto Sazio and his companion living rent free in the head.
Hmmm, I should apologize for the The Strap invading your brain, but....;)
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My handwriting is the same style as the teacher’s who I had when I was nine. I’m now twenty one and he’s been dead eight years but my i’s still curve the same way as his.
I watched the last season of a TV show recently but I started it with my friend in high school. We haven’t spoken in four years.
I make lentil soup through the recipe my gran gave me.
I curl my hair the way my best friend showed me.
I learned to love books because my father loved them first.
How terrifying, how excruciatingly painful to acknowledge this. That I am a jigsaw puzzle of everyone I have briefly known and loved. I carry them on with me even if I don’t know it. How beautiful.
We share so much in common as human beings and yet each 'puzzle' is unique and wondrous because it can grow beyond a finite two or three dimensional boundary when we share and love one another.
Changing out a car battery yourself when the temperature and the relative humidity both equal 93 degrees is like an alternative modern form of Steampunk, especially with how sweaty one gets.
I saw the plot description in an article and IIRC, the FL's emotions affect the weather which is a very interesting take especially given the pilot/flying aspect. I hope the writer(s) don't treat that too superficially or it might come across (searching for a word here) as obvious? That still isn't the word that I mean, but while stormy skies can mimic churning mixed up thoughts as a potential plot element, if that element is too simple, it may fall flat (i.e. sun=happy, rain=sad and so on), I hope it's a touch more subtle.
Not suggesting that the writer(s) cater to my preferences (such as rain=a cozy day or a good day for a quiet walk) but more of an acknowledgement that we, as humans, have derived a thousand and one idioms across hundreds of languages over a thousand plus years that depict our human condition as it relates to weather. They have a chance to create something really special and I hope they succeed but I may be asking too much. (sorry but My Royal Nemesis (2026) spoiled me just recently as to how well imaginative writing can be when directed and cast well).
I look forward to watching it when it's released next year!
Being a fan of a morally grey character is frustrating because people will try to reduce them to either being an innocent little angel or a completely heartless monster and both of these interpretations just take away what makes the character interesting
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agent kim reactivated is so damn fun. the plot is literally what if you put a bunch of middle aged hot actors together and made them all girl!dads and they were former spies and gangsters and they beat each other up in a thriller revenge plot. it's like moving meets taxi driver on crack cocaine. no wonder it became the highest rated kdrama of the year within 2 episodes!! so ji sub is a kdrama legend.
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It was the bus that got me. The little toy bus undoubtedly placed there by Shin Seo-ri in beloved grandmother Nam Ok-soon's columbarium niche. Don't get me wrong, I loved so much about My Royal Nemesis (2026). I laughed, I ogled (maybe even drooled a little during The Shower Scene), I railed against the villainous machinations and injustices, but when I saw the little toy bus, I wept.
Some viewers may disagree but the later scenes with Shin Seo-ri and her grandmother were integral to this story of life and happiness and sadness and all the emotions in between and then saying goodbye to those we hold dear. Shin Seo-ri never got to say goodbye to her parents (slight understatement there), nor was Kang Dan-shim afforded the opportunity to bid farewell to the Grand Prince. Consequently, to love and to care for someone who is physically there but unable to express that fundamental emotion of the final goodbye due to the mental decline of an insidious disease needed to be included in this story. For all of us. To seize the day, to say what needs to be said and do what needs to be done, as Shin Seo-ri avowed, and live as though that goodbye is right before you. To get behind the wheel of the bus and drive it. Shin Seo-ri saw the sacrifices her grandmother made, made without resentment, and the love and devotion Nam Ok-soon gave to her grand-daughter. It was a cathartic experience to see the writer's attention to these details in just a few scenes. That toy bus was a gentle reminder to all of us in more than one way.
*Veteran actress Kim Hae-sook, who played the role of Nam Ok-soon, received South Korea's Eungwon Order of Cultural Merit (2nd class) in 2025. Since her debut in 1974 she has received many awards while appearing in over 30 films and 40 plus television series. She is also playing the role of Eun Chae-ni's (played by Park Eun-bin) grandmother in The Wonderfools (2026). What an outstanding career!
This is going to sound incredibly "I walked 5 miles to school in the snow uphill (both ways)" of me but there was nothing quite like the 2 AM fever dream writing, fueled by Dr. Pepper (or coffee) and assorted sweets (gummy bears, licorice, whatever was handy) with a style guide (i.e. MLA or Chicago) at hand with episodes of writing furiously interspersed with hair pulling as if that would coax words from the brain through the skull to form coherent sentences. Excuse me, sentences that appropriately cited sources and were grammatically correct. The deadline was firm, no last minute succumbing to consumption or some other ailment would be acceptable and thus the only thing to do was endure. That this whole situation was often of the writer's own procrastination was always beside the point--it was always a badge of honor intermingled with some slight sense of shame to shuffle outside in the morning, eyes squinting in the bright sunlight, hair and wardrobe an afterthought, alongside all the others similarly composed-- silently hoping that the completed document was a double-spaced masterpiece and failing that, worth a passing grade. The war stories afterward were shared and compared like wounds of battle. It was glorious.
We should scoff at ChatGPT; there is nothing like hand-to-hand combat between the words and ideas inside your brain. Nothing.
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