too much time in the backseat

i'm beyond deluding myself into thinking that there's anything that I could do or say to make someone that is so deeply unempathetic care about me in any tangible way but there's something about laying in bed for hours talking and having breakfast made for me and being kissed on the forehead just as I'm falling asleep that just makes me question whether or not I can keep my cool

back in my feelings abt a man so ofc I'm back here

hi tumblr

having my ex tell me at noon after spending the night on his couch that I could "keep sleeping" if I wanted to and was tired felt like such a fucking blow. he explicitly told me while we were together that it made him HATE me that I would sleep through the day, even though the reason for that behavior was a result of a medication I was taking. as if suddenly I am just Being Good and I'm allowed to sleep late like a privilege

I want to be able to enjoy my life without counting dollars every waking moment

feels right that on the night before my 25th I'm also getting rid of every single object that's cluttering my apartment

my goal for this bday is to not stress myself to the point of panic over having my closest friends over to my house lol