The Visionary

Self love and self confidence is what I’m working on, but the feeling of not being good enough overshadows my realization, I am enough.

You still haunt me. I still want you.

if you have to fight for your love from him then– lose. lose gracefully and leave because he will realize, one night, that your absence cuts far deeper into his soul than any blade would.

It starts off with him telling you not to look at other guys when you’re with him because it’s disrespectful. He will make you feel like chivalry is a chore or something he does to mould your impression about him but it’s not genuine. Then he’ll have a problem with you interacting with other men, even if it’s a sales man. Any eye contact made by another man will be your fault. He will start telling you how to dress and that you should cover up, even though he spends his spare time liking pictures of half naked women online and entertaining them. He will belittle your words, your opinions and silence your thoughts. He will make your accomplishments seem small. You will find yourself walking on egg shells just to avoid offending him. Anytime you have an argument or question his behaviour, he will call you ugly and insecure, worthless and claim that no other man would want you.

Wow i’ve been saying this for years but every time I do I get called a victim blamer and get told that “ITS NOT HER FAULT SHE STAYS”

all i can think about is whether you’re thinking about me

One day I will wake up and realize that I will be okay. I love you, but you’re not here, and that’s okay. You’ve moved on, and I have too, and that’s okay. You’re not the same person I fell for, and I’m not the same person you fell for, so many years ago, and that’s okay. Yesterday, I felt betrayed by you. Today, I felt abandoned by you. Tomorrow, I may despise you. That, too, is okay. Because One day I will wake up and realize that I will be okay. Without you.

the thing about her, is that she was happy alone. everyone around her was looking for a connection and something to grasp onto, but she was happy being free. she was happy being unchained, happy with no pressure of connections and love. all the love she needed was within herself, and everybody else was just a distraction from everything she was trying to achieve. she understood herself more than anyone else understood her, and that was the most beautiful thing about her.

…I love you so much. So, so much, and I probably always will. I just don’t like you anymore. I’m sorry.

How to Get Over Someone You Once Loved Deeply

She wears it so beautifully doesn’t she, her pain… Always smiling, always positive…. always happy to help… It’s like a garment perfectly tailored to fit the way she carries it… with a touch of grace… and the quietness of that sad smile…. All so you’d never know how heavy it really was.

In my opinion, it’s impossible to have and to feel the same “connection” in depth with more than one person. That’s why I’ll always think it’s a waste of time and energy entertaining or investing into someone who’s still fixated on someone from the past.