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If you have been following my blog for a while then you would know by now that the last three years have been filled with tremendous growth and healing for me. As I sat down to write my annual birthday reflection, I couldn’t help but be proud of myself for how far I have come. I might not be perfect but I definitely am not where I used to be.

For my 23rd birthday, I decided to write about 23…

Still healing, Still evolving

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; Try me and know my anxieties; And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting”

Psalms 139: 23 – 24

  I decided to change my bio on Instagram today and it led me to an epiphany. I don’t know about you, but I often compare myself to others and it has taken a conscious effort to stop. Normally when I change my bio, I check my…

I never wanted to go here

I did not want to come to The College of New Jersey (TCNJ). It was not my top choice nor was it my dream school. It was the school right down the street that my cousins attended and they convinced me to apply. Even though it was not my first choice, I can honestly say that it was the best choice for my growth and that I would not be who I am today if it were not for TCNJ. My experience at this…

The Voice In My Head

Life is not always black and white,

The ends don’t always justify the means,

To live in the grey means your life may be in disarray,

To live in the grey means you might get confused,

It means you might lose hope,

And we all find ourselves here at some point.

  But never succumb to that voice in your head,

The voice that wants to stop you from getting ahead,

Through reflection, you’ll see that you…

I thought sex was the answer…

 “For I know the plans that I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to to me and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seem me with all your heart”

Jeremiah 29:11 – 13

  As a young child, I did not really care for the church. I went because I was told to, not…

As many of you know, I immigrated to America six years ago. Both my parents were born and raised in Jamaica, so their knowledge of America’s inner workings was limited. Many people are surprised when they discover that I have only been in America for six years but, yet I have accomplished so much. The honest truth is that I have only been able to do everything that I have done because I was…

As many of you know, I immigrated to America six years ago. Both my parents were born and raised in Jamaica, so their knowledge of America’s inner workings was limited. Many people are surprised when they discover that I have only been in America for six years but, yet I have accomplished so much. The honest truth is that I have only been able to do everything that I have done because I was…

Manifesting Destinies: Purpose It is commonly said to live your best life and today I want you to live a joyful and fulfilled because only such a life will be your best.

I laid in my bed trembling as the darkness of the night loomed and sorrowful thoughts perpetuated my mind. At this moment, I regretted the decision that I had made to go to a boarding school just because it was prestigious, and I would be celebrated for it. At this moment, I wished that I didn’t place such high importance on being celebrated but rather on being comfortable.  At this moment, I was…

Dear Eashwayne:

The next year will be hard for you. Your life will change drastically, and you will be faced with some life-altering events.  You may not know it now, but you are not living life according to your purpose, values, and ideals. The next couple of months will be uncomfortable but you will grow exponentially as an individual, as a leader and as a servant of God. The trial, challenges,…

My name is Eashwayne (Eash) Haughton and it is my desire to be the next Vice President of Diversity and Inclusion in TCNJ’s Student Government. I am the ideal and most qualified candidate for this position because of my experience as the Inaugural Intern for the Office of Diversity and Inclusion, a member of the Mission Fulfillment Committee and a participant in TCNJ leadership programs. As the…

The Hidden Meanings of Black Panther #NoSpoilers

So, I recently went to watch Black Panther and it was truly a phenomenal movie. Not only was it phenomenal but it was one of a kind. A kind that no one has ever seen on a such a grand stage, it was a black kind of movie that was powerful, positive and thought-provoking. Black Panther signifies a new age in social media and in Hollywood. I know that normally my blogs are more personal and based on…

I have always attempted to be real in my blog post, so I am not going to change now. In the last two weeks, my life has been in utter shambles. Throughout my college career, I have worked very hard over the last couple of years to attain certain goals, and the fruits of my hard work never made it to the harvest. Losing my fruits before the harvest placed my life in shambles and threatened to…

As a child, I was always compared to my peers. I was always told that I needed to get better grades or that I needed it be faster, smarter or more sociable like someone else. The roots of such comparisons may be found in my home as my parents and other relatives wanted me to be the best that I could possibly be and they judged how good I was based on those around me. If any of y’all have siblings…

When you were a young child, did you envision your life being a certain way? Did you envision certain events happening at specific times or that you would have accomplished certain things by a certain age? Have you ever had expectations of yourself that you didn’t meet or been in places/situations that you never thought that you would be in? And finally, are you where you envisioned yourself…

Addiction is very common in the 21st century. Whether it be drugs, sex, social media, social praise, alcohol or being the center of attention, many individuals have found themselves becoming dependent on something in order to fill a void in their lives. When one becomes addicted, most times they are trying to substitute a negative emotion that may be stemming from low self-esteem, a traumatic…