#zen rambles

First DEMO 4 SPOILERS AHEAD!

Doing Nothing is still a valid and honestly freeing activity to do. Capitalism likes us thinking that doing Nothing is not doing anything, but when the choice to do Nothing is an active decision, it can be really peaceful and healing.

Learning to do Nothing is hard because it is easy to get distracted by something and be removed from the activity of doing Nothing, but once doing Nothing becomes an activity you can choose to engage in, doing Something slowly begins to also feel like doing Nothing.

The peacefulness that comes in doing Nothing and doing Something begin to blur as the skills of doing Nothing begin to translate into the foundation of your actions of Something

In the direct, they said there would be 3 separate storylines for the player to follow, one of them being the typical fight the gyms and become the champion plot. But that raises the question of what will the other two stories be? Personally, I think the other two stories will focus around the region's evil team and the Terastal phenomenon/legendaries.

As of right now we do not know what the villains will be, but I'm willing to bet the bright plastered car with very large speakers and fire has something to do with that evil team. This car was also shown during the present when they were talking about the other storylines so it has some importance to one of the plots at least. If this is the villains car though, it doesn't really scream "villains" and more "rowdy and misunderstood" like the past two "evil" teams have been (Team Yell and Team Skull). This leads me to believe pokemon will be doing a similar theme of the evil teams not really being evil and instead have another set organization be evil. (for Sun/Moon it was the Aether Foundation. For Sword/Shield it was chairman Rose). If they do this, I'm excited to see who this real evil person will be. Who knows, maybe the school has something to do with it! I'm excited to see what pokemon comes up with for this storyline.

That leaves the other storyline though, which is not as set in stone in idea as the villains, however I believe it will have to do with the legendaries. It is implied you get your legendary at the very start of the game as a mount, however a legendary right from the start seems a bit much. So this third storyline will probably have to do with your legendary bud and "unlocking" their potential where you could then catch them and use them as a legendary. I believe the Terastal phenomenon will play a role in it as well, but I am not sure how.

And yes this is a hobby, this is for fun, so I should be doing what I enjoy about it.

BUT.

Any fun I may be having, mostly off my dash, is currently being offset by an entirely personally-based lack of enjoyment in not actually producing anything.  It’s honestly not that I feel that I need to be doing things - answering memes, writing replies, etc.  I’m 100% fine with losing followers or not gaining new ones if I’m not appearing to be active enough for their interest.

I just... really miss writing.  

And given that I’ve never had the skill for short stories and the idea of tackling something the size of even a novella is daunting, RP seems to be the right place to try to both get myself back into writing and figure out how to build some discipline and structure around writing.

It’s going to take a while, if it succeeds at all.  I’m probably always going to be slow as fuck.

But I really miss the feeling of creating something, of crafting a story no one else has before, or even crafting a one-trope-after-another story that has some element to it that makes it mine.  I’m tired of feeling like I’ve somehow lost the ability to put words together on a page, because gdi I’ve been doing that for over 20 years and feeling like I’ve lost it feels like losing some quintessential part of myself.  So I’m going to do something I haven’t been doing and push myself.  Carefully.  Not to the point of feeling like this is drudgery.  But with more effort than I’ve honestly been putting into things so far.

...I honestly don’t know what my point of saying all this publicly was other than there are over 550 of you and that’s after I’ve gone through and gotten rid of every inactive and archived blog.  Some of you have been with me from early on.  One of you I use as the moment I consider Vivian’s blog to have started.  Some of you showed interest in and took a chance in a blog that maybe posted IC content once in a blue moon.  And I really want to thank all of you, old followers and new, for staying with me through this period of inactivity.