#zelo angst

Mochi, who laid on your belly, woke up too and looked at you wagging his tail. “Good morning, Mochi” you said softly, picking him up to snuggle him. “What is your daddy doing over there? Shall we take a look?” He barked as an answer and hopped off the couch to ran straight into the kitchen and you followed him still a little drowsy.

“Fuck, shit!”

As you entered the kitchen you heard a loud noise that sounded like something just broke. You giggled silently, but Junhong heard you anyway and as he turned around, he almost dropped a plate.

“Good morning to you too” you said laughing while you tried to figure out what he was doing. He was a terrible cook so what the hell was he even thinking?

“Sorry” he replied and blushed a little, obviously being embarrassed by himself. “Good morning. Did you sleep well?” He turned around again to take care of the food in the pan in front of him, but the smell of it already told you it was too late for that.

“What exactly are you doing there?”

“I'm making pancakes.” He coughed slightly, looking at the mess he made. “Well... at least I was trying.”

Still laughing, you walked over to look at it too but you just frowned. “That's supposed to be pancakes? Were you trying to poison me?”

Junhong had to laugh too as he nudged you softly, he was still embarrassed by all of this. He just wanted to make some nice breakfast for you, since you looked like an innocent angel sleeping next to him. His heart fluttered, as he thought of this picture and he had a big smile on his face while he was looking at you.

“Hmm, maybe?”

He flinched as you gave him a friendly slap and pushed him sway. "You better make some coffee, at least you can't burn it. I'll try to fix the pancake problem."

The first few days went smooth and without any problem. Junhong agreed that you would cook for both of you during your stay with him, even though he was a little disappointed that his surprise had gone down so badly.

Also the bed problem solved itself quite fast, although differently than you would've guessed. When you fell asleep on the couch, Junhong carried you into the bedroom, covered you up and laid himself on the couch instead. The first morning you were irritated, but after it happened again and he didn't want to be dissuaded, you just accepted it. Somehow it was pretty sweet of him to care so much and to be honest it was far too nice to worry about it.

Most time of the day you were alone with Mochi, since Junhong and the boys had a lot of work to do, but that didn't bother you at all. When he came home, the two of you ate together and took Monchi for a walk afterwards. It quickly became some kind of routine and soon you two were already looking forward to the following evening all day long.

Unfortunately the thoughts of Daehyun came back while you were all by yourself and you thought about him a lot while you're alone. You wondered if he mentioned anything to the boys. Did Junhong know about this? Probably not, otherwise he'd have said something to you and make fun of you and tease you if he knew about this. He was still young and probably wouldn't even understand that you're feeling awkward after almost kissing Daehyun. How wrong you were.

Today you were a little nervous since Junhong texted you and asked if you could pick him up after work. You were afraid to see Daehyun again, but you already knew you had to face him sooner or later. Probably it wasn't the worst to do this rather sooner than later.

You were almost disappointed as Junhong wrote that he had to stay a little longer because he still had something to do. You took a deep breath and just realized that you probably worried too much and for nothing. You wouldn't have to face him today.

On your way to the studio you just noticed that you were incredibly relieved and not disappointed at all. You probably fooled yourself when you thought you could handle to see Daehyun again.

The next moment your fears were confirmed as he really stood in front of you. You had already seen him from afar, just as he had seen you, so that was the only reason you didn't turn around immediately. The only thing that was even more pathetic than getting out of his way was beeing watched by him while you’re trying to go out of his way.

“Hey Daehyun” you greeted him, after there was this awkward silence for a moment.

You both stood there, not knowing what to say or what to do, so it took a while for him to reply something. First there was this smile that blew you away immediately, but you managed to act normal.

“Glad to see you again, Y/N”, he said, trying to sound as cool as possible.

You just smiled, hoping the ground would open up beneath you and simply swallow you. This awkward moment should end as soon as possible, even if you secretly wish Daehyun would say something about the almost-kiss. Anything. But he didn't.

“You're here for Junhong, aren't you? He's still inside but almost done with everything.”

“Okay, thanks... I guess.”

You walk up the stairs and had almost opened the door as Daehyun called your name. Slowly you turned around to him again, while you heart was beating faster and faster.

He came up to you, one hand running through his hair. “Because of this thing the other day... I just wanted to say that...” You were listening closely, but he got interrupted by Junhong, who came out just this second.

“There you are!” he said cheerfully, pulling you in a deep hug without any warning. You hugged him back but cursed him quietly for his fucking timing. Couldn't he shown up five minutes later?

“Where else should I be?”

As Junhong pulled away, you looked back to Daehyun who was obviously uncomfortable with this situation. “Uhm, yeah, I gotta go. Have fun, see ya!” And in the blink of an eye he was gone.

“What was that?”, Junhong asked chuckling.

You still looked in the direction Daehyun had gone, just shrugging your shoulders. Damn, you're dying to know what he wanted to tell you. But now it was your turn to talk to him about it because he probably wouldn't try so fast anymore.

“Are you ready?”

You looked up to Junhong, who was grinning all over his face. “For...?” you asked wondering. He didn't tell you why you should pick him up so you were kind of surprised now that he seemed to have real plans for tonight.

“Let's go get something to eat. I'll treat you!”

You just laughed because that was your way of reacting to things you didn't know how to react to at all. “Well, I hope you've got enough money.”

He laughed too, walking near beside you. Of course you didn't understand that he wanted to call it a date, but he was too afraid to ask anyway. So he just imagined it would be a real date without saying anything else because that was enough for him, at least right now.

It's been an incredibly nice evening, as usual lately. You laughed a lot, ordered different dishes and tasted food from each other. In addition, Junhong tried again and again to flirt with you a little, which you noticed but didn't take seriously. You thought this was one of his stupid jokes again, so you went for it. Somehow it was quite funny and it made you forget about Daehyun. Again.

You were on your way home when you passed a bar with loud music that you could even hear on the street. Junhong, who always tried to put an arm around you, hid his hands in his pockets again as you looked up at him.

“Uh, I love that song! Let's sit down for a moment” you said, pointing at the bench right next to you.

“I have a better idea”, Junhong replied and used your confusion to reach out for your wrist, pulling you closer and swirl you around. Instead of sitting and bobbing to the beat of the music you were dancing to it.

After you realized what was happening here, you laughed and threw your head back in amusement. "Junhong, what are you doing?"

He wasn't answering, but he did his best to make you laugh again and again. Dancing with you was always so much fun but this time it was different and he was sure you'd feel it this time. That there was more between you than friendship and that this moment was very special. And yes, you really did. But you had so much fun that you didn't waste any second to think about it. You just lived the moment and this moment was absolutely perfect.

As he song ended you both were totally out of breath from all the laughing and crazy dancing, but you were happy as hell. Still giggling you looked up to Junhong who had his arms wrapped around you. He returned that look and blushed lightly as your eyes interlocked. In this moment he wanted nothing more than to kiss you. But he didn't.

He was a coward and on top of that he didn't want to destroy this beautiful moment with something like that. What would he do if you didn't return the kiss? If you slapped him in the face or just ran away? He just didn't want to take that risk, no matter how perfect this chance was. So he slowly lowered his arms, but not without crossing his fingers with yours.

"Thank you for a lovely evening" you said, even though it was more of a whisper. He grinned widely, you just made him so happy in this moment. But the next thing you said brought him back to reality as it hit him like a train;

"And thank you for being such an incredibly good friend."

“Hey!” You looked around, searching for the others, but you couldn’t find anybody else. “Are you alone? Where is the rest of you?”

He nodded, grabbed his bottle and came to you. “The boys left early. So I practiced a little by myself.” His smile got bigger as he tilted his head, still looking at you. “Why? Am I not enough for you?”

“Of course!”, you replied faster then you could think about it. You blushed a little, trying to hide your embarrassment.

Daehyun laughed out loud, shaking his head in amusement. He took a big sip of his water and threw it back to where it was before.

“Show me what you’re working on”, you demand quickly, to change the subject.

He thought about it for a second, not knowing what he should reply. “I’m not sure if you can handle that”, he said laughing while he gave you this suggestive look you saw on his face for the first time.

You raised an eyebrow, crossing your arms in front of you chest. You felt challenged, so you wanted to proof him wrong. “Oh, I think I can!”

“On your responsibility!” He winked at you and turned on the music.

As the melody started you already lost your confidence. Could you really handle that? You weren’t so sure anymore, now that he started to dance. You swallowed, trying to keep cool but it wasn’t that easy. The way he rolled his hips and the way he was looking into the mirror was too much for you. You recognized that look on his face a few times now, it was his ‘stage-face’ as you called it. There was such an intense, breathtaking gaze on his beautiful face, it nearly blew you away every time.

It seemed as if he was in another dimension while he was singing and dancing. And so were you, since you stood there completely speechless and daydreaming about any possible and impossible scenario where he would only sing for you. Where the two of you would dance together, feeling each others body on your own…

The music stopped and you were still in deep thoughts. Daehyun smirked while he was watching you. He knew he won this game although the way you looked at him was kind of fascinating for him. You just stood there, looking at him, appreciating how handsome he was. You didn’t even realized that something was different now. He came to you slowly, not taking his eyes off of you. It seemed as if you were trapped in that other dimension and there was no escape.

Your eyes interlocked and for a moment you just stood there looking deep into each others eyes. You held your breath without even noticing it and the next moment his face approached yours. Slowly and gently you close your eyes waiting to feel his soft, full lips on yours.

That’s when his phone rang what made your bodies twitch. He took a step back, his eyes widened as he realized what almost happened between the two of you.

“Sorry”, he said, turning away from you to answer that call.

You body was shaking, as you just stared at his back. Tears came up in your eyes so you turned away, too. There was this pain spreading all over your stomach up to your heart and your throat was dry as dust.

“I need to go!”

Daehyun turned around again, but you were already gone. He just stared to the door you disappeared through, unable to move or run after you.

On your way home, you still tried to handle the situation. What the hell just happened? Daehyun almost kissed you, didn’t he? You heart was pounding like crazy inside your chest and you were breathing unsteady. You didn’t really know what to think, but you needed to leave this place because you were too afraid to talk to him about it. So you did the first thing that came into your mind: you ran away!

As you were back home, you calmed down a little, but you could already tell that something was wrong. You had a bad feeling as you opened the door but you couldn’t tell why. Not until you entered your apartment, because that’s when you stumbled in to your next problem.

Your apartment floor was wet and there was water coming out of the bathroom, not much but enough to cause trouble. You got rid of your shoes and slipped through the hallway, directly to the bathroom to take a look at the mess. Obviously it was a water damage, but you couldn’t tell exactly where it was coming from.

Great. As if this wasn’t the worst day already, now it definitely was. Actually you wanted to hide in your bed, eat a lot of ice cream and watch some badly cheesy love stories, pitying yourself. Seemed as if your plans needed to change.

You called the caretaker, to report your problem. 20 minutes later he arrived to take a closer look into your bathroom. That’s when you texted Junhong, hoping he would have any idea what to do now.

Half an hour later, you were in his kitchen, desperately looking for something to eat.

“Is there even the slightest chance to find something else than ramen?”, you asked Junhong who stood right behind you. He smirked, watching closely what you were doing.

“Not really.”

You sighed as you took a look in the fridge, hoping and praying to find some vegetables and luckily your prayers have been answered. It wasn’t that much, but it would be enough to make something delicious.

You were starving, so you suggested to cook something instead of ordering pizza again. Junhong wasn’t that excited, but he agreed, probably because he knew how empty his fridge was.

While you were cutting the vegetables, Junhong was taking care of the ramen themselves. He wasn’t a big cook, so he was busy enough following the instructions on the package. It was kind of funny that he still had to read them, since he did them nearly a thousand times himself. Sometimes you wondered if he was just living from one delivery service to another.

“You kitchen is bullying me!”, you whined. After everything was prepared, you just wanted to add some spices. However, they were on the top shelf, which was simply not accessible. At least not for you.

He chuckled, coming over to you and reaching out for the spices. You felt his body in your back and for some reason it was… awkward. It wasn’t like you’d never been that close before, quite the opposite, but you could’ve sworn something was different anyway. Maybe it was Junhong who caused this, because his body was going crazy while he stood that close to you. The smell of your hair tickled his nose and made his heart beat faster and faster.

The next second that moment was gone and none of you even said a single word. Instead, your stomach was rumbling loudly what made you both laugh.

“Ordering pizza would have been a lot faster, by the way”, he said winking but you just rolled your eyes.

After dinner, you got a call to let you know what exactly happened in your apartment. In fact it wasn’t just your apartment, but four more, all of them surrounding yours. He told you the water pipe broke and it would probably take a while for the problem to be solved.

You threw your phone on the table and sighed glumly. Rubbing your temples you were thinking about the next few weeks and how you could handle all of that. Junhong, who’s watching you, raised an eyebrow, waiting for you to tell him what happened. He put his hand on your leg to stroke it gently, trying to calm you down.

“The water pipe broke. It’ll take weeks to fix this!”

“Shit”, he said, his eyes widened.

Mochi, who just came running to you, barked and you lifted him up to snuggle him. “What am I supposed to do now?”, you asked Mochi. You had no idea what to do now, you didn’t even realize what had happened today. You totally forgot about Daehyun and probably that was your luck, but you had real trouble to handle all of that subconsciously.

“Well, uhm – you can stay here, if you want”, Junhong answered, trying to keep cool. He had trouble to stay calm, but you didn’t recognized that, as always.

“Are you serious?”

He shrugged his shoulders and smiled his unique Junhong smile. “Sure.”

You flung your arms around his neck, pulling him closer to you and hug the shit out of him. “You’re the best!”

He blushed a little, but hugged you back. Secretly he enjoyed this closeness more than he should, but he couldn’t help himself. Things were different to him, but how would you know?

■ Chapter 1: As so often lately, you’re paying the boys a visit in the studio. Actually, everything is the same as always, but there is this awkward situation between you and Daehyun. And on top of it, Junhong’s acting very strange.

■ Chapter 2: Junhong invites you over and you spend the day together. Typically for the two of you, you’re eating pizza, watching movies and spending time with Mochi. And yet sometimes Junhong acts really strange…

■ Chapter 3: Things get more complicated as you meet Daehyun a few days later. Everything seems to get out of control and as if that isn’t enough, the next surprise is waiting for you at home. 

■ Chapter 4: Temporarily, you’ve moved in with Junhong. A new everyday life develops very quickly and soon becomes routine. Even if things are still a bit awkward sometimes, you just enjoy spending more time together again and Daehyun is almost forgotten. Almost.

Youngjae and Himchan are filling up their drinks, handing out beer bottles, glasses or other stuff to a few other guests, others are talking extensively or dancing to the beat of the music. But you can't see him anywhere. Your heart becomes heavy for a moment, but the next moment you are addressed by Yongguk.

"Are you all right?" he asks as he realizes something's obviously bothering you. He got up from his seat to sit right next to you. Otherwise you'd had a hard time understanding each other because of the background sound.

It takes a moment to sort his words in your head until you understand what he just asked. Then you nod and smile sincerely. "Sure. Everything's fine," you answer and actually mean it exactly like that. But your face doesn't seem very convinced, because you still look a little sad.

"You Sure? You look kind of... absent."

Your smile gets a little brighter because you're so overwhelmed by Yongguk worrying about you. "Yes, really. It's sweet of you to ask, but it's not worth mentioning. Honestly."

"Okay," he says and leans back in his seat smiling. "By the way, I'm really glad you made it today."

You brush a strand of hair behind your ear and look down for a moment, because you don't quite know how to react to this. It means a lot to you that your friends enjoy your company so much. And the fact that Yongguk also talks about it means a lot more to you. After all, the boys are busy and don't have that much time for parties and stuff. That's one of the reasons you couldn't stay away that night. You barely see the six of them and you miss everyone so badly. Especially Junhong.

When you look up again, you see him. Junhong comes back from the terrace and for a moment your glances cross. But then he looks down to the floor avoiding any further eye contact. You watch him join the dancing group and start to move his body.

Yongguk didn't notice much of your absence because he was distracted by Daehyun for a moment. It's probably better that way, otherwise he might have noticed what - or more specific who - distracted you so much. And you don't want anyone to know.

However, the conversation goes in a different direction without any inconvenient questions. You're having a great conversation and so much fun. He tells funny stories about the time on tour or at TV-shows and you have to laugh about every single one of them. You listen to him carefully and try to imagine everything, but you can't. That makes it even funnier and you can hardly get out of laughter for a short time.

After a while you look back to Junhong, who is still busy dancing. You didn't realize he kept looking at you and watching you. So you can't imagine why he's giving you the cold shoulder now. Because he doesn't pay any attention to you anymore at all.

This time, however, your secret staring isn't unnoticed, because both, Yongguk and Jongup, see exactly who you're looking at. You probably don't know, but they all know about your secret crush.

"Y/N, are you still there?", Yongguk ask amused, waving the palm of his hand in front of your eyes.

You clear your throat and look down on your hands. You're a little uncomfortable, after all, you didn't want anyone to know about your secret feelings. You don't want anything to change between you, especially not between you and Junhong.

"Are you going to him by yourself, or should I pick you up and carry you?"

With big eyes you look at Yongguk as he begins to laugh. Apparently, you took his words a little literally but then you have to laugh too. You just can't figure out what's different that night. You've been in love with Junhong for so long, yet no one has noticed. Somehow you have always managed not to show your feelings. At least that's what you thought. For various reasons the easiest thing for you was to pretend that these feelings never exist.

"I'll go," you mumble nervously and rise from your seat.

Yongguk gives you a thumbs up and cheers you up. You take another deep breath and look back at Junhong as you were about to leave. But your body doesn't make any move as you see, what he's doing there.

His body is still moving to the beat of the music and normally that would fascinate you all over again, but not right now. Because he's not dancing alone, a woman you don't know is dancing in front of him. They are dancing that close it just looks as if they rub their bodies against each other.

Your heart bursts into tiny little pieces and you run away out of the next door onto the terrace. Surprised and worried at the same time Yongguk looks after you. Then his look wanders to the youngest member who makes him roll his eyes. No way he's doing something so stupid!

“Such an idiot”, he mumbles what makes Daehyun and Jongup look up to him. They also watch the show and shake their heads in disbelief. Apparently everyone knows about your (not so secret) feelings. Everyone but him.

Yongguk grabs him by his shoulders and pulls him aside. “What exactly are you doing here?”, he asks and raises an eyebrow.

“What do you mean?”

“Don't play dumb, you know what I'm talking about. That show you're doing with F/N.”

Junhong sighs heavily and shrugs his shoulders. “We're just... dancing”, he mumbles and scratches his head in embarrassment. He thought it would be a way to show himself it didn't bothered him to see you with Yongguk being so close. But in fact... it did. A lot.

“That's what you call dancing? Looks like some kind of soft porn to me!”

“Why do you care?”, the younger asks stubbornly. He may have grown up but the difference in age between the two of them is too obvious sometimes.

“Don't you care about Y/N's feelings at all?”

The grin disappears from his face as Junhong hears your name. “Why? What is wrong with her? She seemed to be doing just fine with you!”, he says, crossing his arms in front of his chest.

Now it's up to Yongguk to sigh. He shakes his head in disbelief and laughs. “Are you really that stupid?”

“What did you just say?”

“What the hell you think you saw? Y/N's only had eyes for you the whole evening, you dumb-ass!”, Yongguk scolds and shakes his head again. “Please tell me you aren't that blind.”

Again Junhong's silent, not knowing what to say at all. Was he really as blind as Yongguk just said? He always only had eyes for you and didn't notices you liked him back? Did he really miss that? No, it can't be!

“She's on the terrace.” With these words Yongguk turns away and goes back to his other friends. He really can't believe there was this kind of misunderstanding. Why was he thinking there's something between the two of you? You only were talking and having fun, nothing more. Seems as if Junhong has still a lot to learn.

The fresh night wind blows as you close your eyes and take a deep breath. Your fingers grip the railing and literally cling to it. In your mind's eye, the scene just happens over and over again. It hurts a little more every time you see the picture of Junhong and this woman. Your hands start to shake and your eyes are still closed as he steps outside. So you don't even realize that you're no longer alone.

Once he clears his throat you open your eyes and freeze in your movement. You don't need to turn around to know it's Junhong who's standing behind you.

You don't even try to hide your disappointment since he'll probably recognize it anyway, even if he probably didn't know why. At least you hope so.

"Y/N?" he asks carefully and comes one step closer. "Are you all right?"

You shake your head because somehow you can't believe he's asking you this question. So much for that he would recognize it... You feel anger and disappointment growing in you, but you try to control yourself. Unfortunately, you don't succeed at all and it suddenly bursts out of you.

"No, Junhong, I'm not okay. You think I didn't see your show in there? Everyone saw you dirty dancing in there. And everyone saw how much it hurts me to see the two of you like that. Now everyone knows! Yongguk knows, Jongup knows and Daehyun certainly knows. And then it won't be long before Youngjae and Himchan find out about it too. So is everyone else. And then -"

"They know what?", Junhong interrupts your flood of words, upsetting you even more.

"That I love you, you moron!"

For the moment there is silence between the two of you. He obviously seems to be overwhelmed by this information, you can almost see how it rotates inside his brain.

"You... what?"

You sigh heavily and fight the tears that come up. Probably that's the worst way to respond to your confession. But honestly that was the worst way to confess your feelings for him so you are not surprised he reacted like that.

Just as you are about to leave, Junhong holds you back by your wrist and pulls you towards him. With momentum you fall into his arms and get pressed close to his body. You're holding your breath, completely overwhelmed the feeling of his body being so close to yours.

With his Hand he gently raises your head so you can look at him. There is so much love and desire in his look it almost knocks you out. Could it be...?

He softly puts his lips on yours and every thought is blown away. A strong tingling rises in your stomach, spreading all over your body and let your heart pound like crazy against your chest.

You warap your arms around his neck and stand on tiptoes so you can get closer to him. Junhong is such a giant that he has to bend down to you, although you make yourself as big as you can.

The kiss is full of love, so gentle and timid. He's flashed just like you and can't really believe what's happening right now. With this kiss he shows you how much he responds to your feelings and how much he longs for you.

He carefully bumps his tongue against your lips and you open them a little. When your tongues meet, a little fireworks explodes inside you. Junhong kisses you so gently and at the same time so longingly that it takes your breath away completely.

After what seemed like an eternity, you separate and land back on your heels. A little dizzy, you lean against his chest and snuggle up to him, still not understanding what is happening.

You gingerly took his phone out of his hand and turned it off, laying it face down beside your leg. “How about we watch a movie?” you asked, hoping to take his mind off of her. He thought about it for a moment, then nodded, moving his head so he could get up and find a favorite you two shared. You walked out of his room to grab some snacks, but when you came back he was right back on his phone, laying on his stomach while the movie loaded. You gave a minor scowl before laying next to him and taking his phone once again. “Stop,” you said in a slightly forceful tone, “stressing about it will do more harm than good.” You switched your tone to a more caring one. “Just watch the movie with me and try to unwind, okay?”

“Okay.”

You were satisfied, knowing that there wasn’t much more you could do to help him. Watching the first scenes of the movie, you snuggled next to him and munched on some chocolate. Junhong’s brain kept replaying his conversations but soon his train of thought took a turn to you. He glanced over at you happily enjoying the movie. You had always been with him when he needed you. Through school, becoming an idol, and even when he was having problems with other girls. You never seemed jealous or upset, you helped him work through his problems and he always enjoyed seeing you. Maybe what he was looking for had been in front of him all along. You weren’t like any of the girls he dated, but he suspected that’s why you stayed so long when all of the others had left.

Mentally he kicked himself for not realizing this sooner but there was no point in dwelling on that for too long. He shifted so he was closer to you and linked his arm with yours, both of you resting comfortably on your stomachs. He always loved seeing you, no matter how busy he was. It seemed to just make so much sense. This wasn’t a want, he decided, it was a need. A need for you to be his, to not only be his friend but his other half.

You had noticed he was quiet for the whole movie and you assumed he was still thinking about her and where he went wrong. The poor boy didn’t even realize when the movie had ended, so you brought him out of his daze by ruffling his hair gently. “The movie’s over,” you whispered gently, “and it’s getting kind of late. I’m going to have to go home.”

He nodded solemnly. “Okay.”

As you got your things together his heart sank. He didn’t want you to leave. He wanted you to stay, to be with him tonight and every night just like you always were when he needed you. But he knew you had to leave nonetheless.

“Y/N,” he called cautiously. You walked over to him with your bag on your back, ready to leave. He bent down to give you a hug like he always did when one of you had to leave.

He wanted to tell you every word in the world, but all he could muster was a simple phrase before he leaned in further.

“Thank you for being with me tonight.”  

Before you could reply his lips were gently pressed to yours. The kiss was slow and delicate, and as you pulled away you could see his emotion leaking through his eyes.

“I need a girl like you.”

You knew this was always something that could happen, but that didn’t take the realism away from it. But you had made peace with your feelings long ago. Zelo always chased the same type of girl, and you weren’t that type. You knew you would always be a friend and nothing more, that he was just hurting and you were here to mend his heart when it had been damaged by someone else.

I need a girl like you.

You glanced up at him again, and took a small step towards the door. “Junhong, don’t.”

“What?”

“You know you don’t want this.”

He was shocked, but he tried to hide it. “What do you mean?”

Quietly you turned to go. It was too painful to do this, to see him break and to feel yourself break in front of him. As you opened his front door you turned to him again.

“You know that even though you need a girl like me, you’re always going to want a girl like her.”