I'm doing this as an ask so you can feel free to publish it or not, all depending on how you want it. Firstly, I'd like to say you were right and I was wrong. A major point of my Darcy is that she's a bad mutant ally- she's got a case of what's typically called "White Girl Saves the World". And I thought I knew better, enough to properly and knowingly portray an ally who learns shit isn't about her and to just listen and fight when asked to. But I don't. And I should have. What I meant to -
say doesn't matter - I shouldn't have made a post with language so unclear in a subject that is incredibly important, as, clearly, it can do more hurt than good. When called out on that fact, I shouldn't have reacted the way I did. I shouldn't have reacted at all, infact, and should have accepted what I was told and adjusted my knowledge in accordance with that. I don't expect you to pat me on the head for being a good white girl. I don't expect a cookie for doing what any decent human being-
should be expected to do, and I don't want or expect you to forgive me because it's not about me or what makes me feel or look better. I wanted to set things right because you deserve that. I'm deleting the posts- not because I'm ashamed of them or because I don't want evidence on you calling my half-assed post out, but because I know for a fact that someone who doesn't have an inkling of an idea is going to see it and harrass you for it, and that's not okay (even -
if I'm sure you are perfectly capable of handling bullshit)
I chose to post this, not because I want some kind of archive on my blog of 'I won, she lost', but so that my followers can see, for themselves, that she's apologised and to, in turn, cut off any point of strife or argument; it's done with.
To ZapZap-mun, I'd like to say thank you for having the courage to admit that you're wrong; not many people and not many allies can or do. I'd like to thank you for telling me about it, as well.Â
To everyone who has supported me in this matter, thank you so much and I love you all.
To everyone else; people who have been posting how I'm illiterate, how horrible I am for not ~being nice~ about this, who has claimed that I (apparently) don't know how to love or am too scared to ~love~ my way through discrimination, I would like to say a big fat fuck you to you. Until you've gone through everything that I've gone through, until you've experienced first hand what I've had to deal with, until you have walked every single mile of my life in my shoes, you have no place to judge me or tell me how to deal with discrimination. You have no place to tell me to calm down because I'm overreacting. You have no place to tell me that I have no right to be angry. You have no place to tell me that I should be nicer or more docile in the face of discrimination. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT.Â
But I guess one good thing came from this;Â I know which of you fuckers are the racist ones.Â
And my friends know it, too.
Even if you had NO GUTS TO TAG ME in your commentary, I can promise you I found you. It's funny how some people can accuse you of hiding behind the Internet but not even bother to tag the person the slurs are directed towards, no?
Anyways, call me when the whole love-your-abusers thing gets rid of all the -isms.
Don't take my word for it:
If we react to white racism with a violent reaction, to me that’s not black racism. If you come to put a rope around my neck and I hang you for it, to me that’s not racism. Yours is racism, but my reaction has nothing to do with racism. My reaction is the reaction of a human being, reacting to defend himself and protect himself. This is what our people haven’t done, and some of them, at least at the high academic level, don’t want to. But most of us aren’t at that level. - Malcolm X
I have no mercy or compassion in me for a society that will crush people, and then penalize them for not being able to stand up under the weight. - Malcolm X
You will never get real freedom and recognition between Black and white people in this country without destroying the country, without destroying the present political system, without destroying the present economic system, without rewriting the entire constitution. It would be a complete destruction of everything that America supposedly stands for before a white man in this country will recognize a Black man as something on the same level with himself. - Malcolm X
I had hoped that the white moderate would see this need. Perhaps I was too optimistic; perhaps I expected too much. I suppose I should have realized that few members of the oppressor race can understand the deep groans and passionate yearnings of the oppressed race, and still fewer have the vision to see that injustice must be rooted out by strong, persistent and determined action. - Martin Luther King
I must confess that over the past few years I have been gravely disappointed with the white moderate. I have almost reached the regrettable conclusion that the Negro's great stumbling block in his stride toward freedom is not the White Citizen's Counciler or the Ku Klux Klanner, but the white moderate, who is more devoted to "order" than to justice; who prefers a negative peace which is the absence of tension to a positive peace which is the presence of justice; who constantly says: "I agree with you in the goal you seek, but I cannot agree with your methods of direct action"; who paternalistically believes he can set the timetable for another man's freedom; who lives by a mythical concept of time and who constantly advises the Negro to wait for a "more convenient season." Shallow understanding from people of good will is more frustrating than absolute misunderstanding from people of ill will. Lukewarm acceptance is much more bewildering than outright rejection. - Martin Luther King
I must remind you that starving a child is violence. Suppressing a culture is violence. Neglecting school children is violence. Punishing a mother and her family is violence. Discrimination against a working man is violence. Ghetto housing is violence. Ignoring medical need is violence. Contempt for poverty is violence. - Coretta Scott King
and many more, but I'll leave you ~~*~allies~*~~ to your jobs to do your research.
