Jan 1, 2015
FIRST WORD IN THE MORNING OF 2015
me:Ā *wakes up*
me:Ā What? It's 2015 already?
me:Ā Nah...Ā
me:Ā *back to sleep*
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FIRST WORD IN THE MORNING OF 2015
me:Ā *wakes up*
me:Ā What? It's 2015 already?
me:Ā Nah...Ā
me:Ā *back to sleep*
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13 hour car drive and the only part of the tumblr app that seems to be working is the messaging. So people should send me asks.... Please? Really boring drive. I will totally answer privately if you prefer. And I don't mind anons
6:11 am... guess who's still wide awake~
// *flops* Guh... Me and my mom just got back from a walk. We were talking about The Legend of Zelda the whole time too! But now I'm exhausted ;; I'll be on at around nine or something, so if I owe you, drop a note or something.
// *goes to lay down*
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// *whispers* I'll be on a little later, if that matters. If I owe you a thing kindly let me know, alright?
Pewdiecry: Crazy stuff happens
Chapter 4: Ā The talk
[Still Cryās pov]
When I came inside my home, my thoughts started wandering off after thinking through most of the eveningā¦
āBrainā¦ itās Felixā¦ not Pewdie or Pewdsā¦ not when weāre together like thisā¦ Felix, Felix, Felixā¦ remember that now!? FELIXā¦ waitā¦ didnāt I make some sort of plan today? With someone onlineā¦ Skype? I donāt rememberā¦ letās just have everything openā¦ just in caseā¦ā
And sure enough after a little while something popped up on his computerā¦
Skype? So who?... wait fuckā¦ Pewdsā¦ I forgot about thatā¦ itās easy to forget stuff like that when youāre with that exact same person, okay?...
āHi cry!ā Pewds said, he seemed really happyā¦
āSup?ā I said, just like I always had said it, I should probably change it up sometimesā¦
āYou seem happy today, something good happen?ā I asked, maybe his girlfriend called him or something?
āReally? Yeah, I guess Iām kinda happyā¦ I mean I met this person which I think is awesome, kinda reminds me of youā Pewds said, smiling the whole timeā¦ wait, so Iām the reason heās so happy? Well fuck meā¦
āOh? Tell me more about this awesome person you metā I said, ha! Pewds whatever you say now can, and will be used against you!
āWell, this person is funny and I justā¦ this person is a girl by the wayā¦ā what!? Pewdsā¦ Iām not a girlā¦ did he meet someone else? āAndā¦ well I think I might have some feelings for herā¦ā he finishedā¦ it took me a while to realize what had happened here, but eventually I managed to answerā¦
āWowā¦ but wait, what about your girlfriend?ā his expression changed a little, showing a faintly noticeable feeling of sadness and pain.
āIā¦ we broke upā¦ SHE broke upā¦ said she wasnāt sure if I really loved her anymoreā¦ andā¦ no forget it, we broke up, thatās itā¦ā Pewds finishedā¦ an awkward silence followed, I had no idea what to say to thatā¦ fuckā¦
āSoā¦ so tell me more about this GIRL you metā¦ā I said, in a desperate attempt to lighten the mood a littleā¦ he looked at the screen for a while with a slightly distant expression evident in his eyes, until his mood seemed to slowly go back to how it used to beā¦ goodā¦ personally I prefer it when Pewds is happyā¦
āWellā¦ she was just perfect, she was funny, niceā¦ I donāt know what to sayā¦ I really like her, and I guess I want toā¦ I donāt know maybe go into a relationship with herā¦ but, I stillā¦ if Iām going to go further with her, itāll have to wait for a little whileā¦ā Pewds saidā¦ heās still not at 100% happiness yetā¦
āSoā¦ when did you meet her?ā I asked, because shit, when did he have the time to meet her?
āI met her a few days agoā¦ sheās going to the same school as me, and Iāve already been to her house! And today we even went to a restaurant! I guess thatās why Iām so happy todayā Pewds said, his happiness reaching about 93% during the end of the conversationā¦
āR-really?ā I saidā¦ are you kidding me pewds!? Youāre talking about MEā¦ and youāre saying Iām a girlā¦ waitā¦ relationship? Shit, pewds!? Heāsā¦ gay? Heā¦ likes me, andā¦ wants toā¦ fuck, brain.exe has stopped workingā¦
āYeah! Iām going to see her tomorrow tooā¦ I canāt wait to talk to her at school tomorrow! Well, she doesnāt really talk much during school thoughā¦ I guess she doesnāt really like being in big groups and talking with other peopleā¦ but at least she talks to meā pewds ended the sentence with a huge smileā¦ oh shitā¦ Pewds.has.fallen.for.meā¦ okayā¦ I need time to think this throughā¦
āI, yeah, sureā¦ Pewds-I mā¦ are you sure that you likeā¦ her?ā I nearly screwed up a lot of times thereā¦ brain, you have to get your shit togetherā¦ firstly, heās Pewds when Iām cry and heās Felix when Iām Ryanā¦ and when heās Pewds Ryanās a Girl, so itās not me, itās she, and you know nothingā¦ okay?
āIā¦ Iām kinda conflicted about itā¦ I mean I really like her, but I still have feelings for someone elseā¦ I guess thatās why SHE broke up with meā¦ because I had feelings for someone elseā¦ fack, all this love shit is confusing as hellā¦ā Pewds said, and weāre down to about 46% on the happiness scaleā¦
āItās okay Pewdsā¦ I guess, I guess itāll work outā¦ you just have to think things through before you start somethingā¦ maybe you donāt really like this person? That person might just be someone you like hanging out with, but after everything that have happened you justā¦ I donāt knowā¦ you just have to figure out who you really likeā¦ which person you have closest to your heartā¦ā I said, although it was more of a rambleā¦ I had no idea what to sayā¦ if I said something encouraging in the wrong ways, Iād have to deal with him confessing and I donāt know how I really feel about thatā¦ because I never really thought about him in that wayā¦ andā¦ could I go into a serious relationship with pewds? Iā¦ shit, I need more time to think this throughā¦
āThanks Cryā¦ but itās not quite like thatā¦ you see, the person I have the most feelings forā¦ well that person is kinda impossible to confess toā¦ and Iām pretty sure that person doesnāt like me backā¦ and when I met this girlā¦ I started getting more and more feelings for herā¦ and the fact that she nearly only talks to me is kinda encouraging me to believe that maybe, just maybeā¦ maybe she could acceptā¦ shit, maybe sheād be willing to go into a relationship with me eventuallyā¦ā Pewds saidā¦
āPewdsā¦ I donāt know what to sayā¦ā Iām kinda speechless right nowā¦ here he is, confessing his love for Ryan to Cryā¦ so heās confessing his love for me to me without knowing itā¦ I feel kinda badā¦ but hey, he should feel bad to! I mean in a way heās using me as a substitute for the person he really likesā¦ who could that be?
āPewds?ā I asked, waiting for his replyā¦ I needed the time to prepare myself for what might comeā¦
āYeah?ā Pewds answered carefully, it seems like he understands that somethingās upā¦ a silent pair of seconds followed, and the silence hang over us like a heavy curtain, wellā¦ at least it felt like that for meā¦ Pewds was nervously waiting in silence for me to reply I guessā¦
āWhoā¦ who is the person you like?ā I asked, and the imaginary curtain felt like it got heavierā¦
A silence that felt like it lasted about 25 minutes but really lasted about 30 seconds erupted, and my mind was completely blankā¦ I didnāt think about anythingā¦ I just listened, waiting for his replyā¦
āIām not ready to tell you, anyone yetā¦ sorryā Pewds eventually replied, and my curtain didnāt feel as heavy as beforeā¦ I think Iām gonna name him Frank. Yeah, my Pewds curtain is named Frank.
āThatās okay, whenever youāre ready to tell me youāll do soā I said, Iām feeling a lot better nowā¦ kinda strange seeing as he didnāt tell me anythingā¦ but still, Frank wasnāt being a jerk anymore eitherā¦
āBut thenā¦ could you tell me who this girl you met is then?ā I asked, knowing heād have problems telling me that... Iām evil sometimesā¦
āU-umā¦ Iā¦ okay soā¦ I canāt really tell you that eitherā¦ Iām sorryā¦ againā¦ā Pewds said, I really like seeing him having trouble with stuff like thisā¦ does that make me a bad person?
āThatās okay tooā¦ but wait, why did you approachā¦ this girl in the first place?ā I askedā¦ yes! Avoided saying āmeā this time to! But brain, really? You could try a little harderā¦
āWellā¦ there was something about her that made meā¦ I guess it was love at first sight, haha, never thought Iād say thatā¦ but I kinda saw it as a challenge tooā¦ especially when the girls told me he didnāt speak muchā¦ but I guessā¦ I guess it got seriousā¦ā Pewds said thoughtfully, he was really thinking this through huh? I couldnāt help letting out a small laughā¦
āYouāre so romantic Pewds, hahaā I saidā¦ I couldnāt help it okay? The whole situation was so strangeā¦ faith really did something weird here, didnāt she? Waitā¦ did Pewds say he? āPewdsā¦ did you just say HE?ā I askedā¦ I guess he fucked up real bad this timeā¦
āI-what? Noā¦ I did not!ā he said, light panic evident in his voice. Oh he knew he fucked up now.
āYes you did, you said āthe girls told me HE didnāt say muchā so the she, is really a dude?ā I said playfullyā¦ of course I knew that from the start, but I wanted him to tell it to me himself.
āā¦ Okayā¦ yesā¦ the girlās a guyā¦ thatās kinda the reason I told you I couldnāt tell you who this person isā¦ Cry?ā Pewds repliedā¦
āYeah?ā
āIām gayā¦ā --------------------------------------------------------
this must be september alright, because I'm about 1/3 done with the next chapter... so I might just finish the next chapter today too...
I quite frequently combine words accidentally, either because I can't choose which word I actually want before I speak or else because I am so excited that I mix togethemer.