you don't need him or his negative, controlling, insecure ass. 

You won’t leave my mind. I’ll continuously run around in circles, over-assessing every single thing I ever did and said to you over my near twenty-two years of life knowing you. You left, came back for us then left again; You are as impossible as my reach is to the stars. You always said you loved us, but what’s your love? What is the love you use with your fists? What is the love you use without even a wave before you leave? No smoke signals, no letters, no words, no actions other than your feet walking out of the door one more time. You’d think I’m used to it by now but I’m not. Every time it hurts more, because you build the hope you’d stay every time.. Just before you leave. The moon is more reliant than you; Revealing itself every night. Every scar on show, no words said but one simple action. Somehow beyond what you could’ve done for us.. Just before you left again. And we don’t deserve the thought of “was it because I wasn’t good enough? why can I never be good enough to be loved by you?”. Where I am right now, is further than you will ever be. I will walk myself down the aisle, my children will have one grandfather. I will beat you to the end of the finish line holding up a sign saying “I lead this life; I lived it, I loved it, all without you”. Because you showed us all leaving is a sign of strength: Do it when the person you are leaving deserves better than to be treated like dirt. Do it when you know you treat your own children like a competition against your ex wife, the mother of your children you left behind. And those words that flew out of your mouth every time after W E had to apologise for YOUR behaviour; “my door is always open” are words I am slamming shut in-front of your face.. Right after I show you I can get by without you. {All you ever taught was leave, but we learnt love from our mother without you. We don’t need you} #empowerment #youdontneedhim #dearyou • #writingcommunity #writersofinstagram #poetsofinstagram #poetrycommunity #communityovercompetition #nofathersclub #wordstagram #writersnetwork #spilledpoetry #spilledink #spokenword #spokenpoetry #poetsnetwork #wordshurt #poeticmind #poeticheart #poeticsoul #wordpressblog (at Beaconsfield, Victoria, Australia)

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We didn’t even want to try. We didn’t want to stay. You just wanted her.

I can tell you not to care, but it's not going to help. You're going to care. It's inevitable. It's going to take awhile to get over it. It's going to simply suck. You don't need him though. You think you do, I get it completely, but you don't. I'm so sorry that he made you feel this way, he's a douchebag. He's only judging you to have a reason to be mad at you and if that's not the case then he is a hypocrite and needs to reevaluate his life. You've done nothing wrong for him to make you feel like you feel right now. You're stronger than that. I know.