Warning if you wanna get to know me
Don't come near me if you don't plan on staying. Don't think my problems and behavior are cute. Don't think you can magically 'change' and/or 'save' and/or 'cure' me.
I'm unstable. Really freaking much. I don't deal well with my emotions, basically just not at all. I have a lot of moodswings. They consume me and i'm drowning in them. I have flashbacks during the day and nightmares at night. I zone out. I don't want to eat. I cut. I lie. I hide. I have many many secrets. I try to kill myself from time to time. I don't trust people. I have skyhigh walls. I can't stand touching at times. Other times, i need a lot of reassurance and comforting. Basically, i am a mess and a whole bunch of problems.
I have a great mask irl, but in fact, i am just completely losing my shit. I live a double life, every day and night.
You'll have to put in a lot (and lots and lots and lots) of effort before you even get to see a glimpse of the real me. You'll have to be careful. It'll take a lot of energy. It'll be tiring. It'll be frustrating. I will literally try to push you away, even when i might not even want to.
Just.. Don't bother if you already know you're not up for it.
