#yotha

Faifa was the first person to make sure Gun was okay. He was also the first one Gun went to when he felt unsafe. He asked him to take them home because he knew Faifa would respect him. Yotha likes Gun (probably more than he even realises) but his actions have made it more than clear to Gun that he is not Yotha's first concern (that isn't necessarily true, but Yotha has left Gun on multiple occasions despite him asking).

But Faifa always puts others first, almost to a fault. Which is why when Faifa asks, oh so gently, to explain why Gun feels hurt, he actually does.

The line that really stands out to me is when Yotha screams "Gun is... not an object." Because yes! That's exactly the point. And yet Yotha talks to Faifa first, not Gun. He assumes that it's Faifa who made the decision. Because when they were kids they didn't get a say in who stays with mom and who stays with dad. He was mad at Faifa for the same reason he was mad at their mom.

Both Yotha and Faifa are protectors. But Yotha thinks it's an offensive game. He needs to protect from someone- he needs to protect Fai from his mom, protect Gun from Faifa (or his nightmares), himself from love. There is an enemy and he is the sword.

Faifa is a sheild. To him it always has been defensive. He needs to protect Gun and Yotha to keep them safe, to stop them from hurting. He isn't fighting the problem, he is holding their hand and walking through it with them. He takes the time to understand their needs. And the only confrontations are ones someone else starts. (God I love him so much).

So when Fai says this ("you've never taken care of him"), I'm inclined to agree. It's not entirely true, obviously. But it's about what Gun wants, and Gun doesn't need a sword.

Yotha realises he's made a mistake but he doesn't know how to fix it. I really hope he figures it out but it's not just "kiss and make up".

this scene is truly the embodiment of this tweet 😂

ok so Faifa is my favorite character in Perfect 10 Liners. I believe he is more layered than any of the other character. While Yotha also carries a lot of trauma, Faifa deals with his in his own way. In fact, Faifa and Yotha are more similar than one might think—they represent different sides of the same coin.

Contrasting Personalities: Faifa vs. Yotha

From the very first episode of their arc, we see a stark contrast between Faifa and Yotha’s coping mechanisms. Yotha prefers solitude, retreating into his thoughts to process his pain. Faifa prefers to seek company and suppress the thoughts and emotions that may trouble him. It's not even the first day of the university and we can see that Faifa wants to socialize and explore the campus and dorm while Yotha wants to stay in.

Roots of Their Fears

While Yotha's fear was of love. That if he ever loved someone then he wouldn't be loved back. Confused because of Wa's response if his love or affection for him even was love and affection. So he shut himself off from this whole fiasco. But Faifa's fear is different.

When he was separated from his brothers and father, and became lonely at his mother's house, he has hoped to never be lonely. Faifa's fear involved him being torn away from the people he loved so he just made the habit of making more and more friends. Making a personality that cares for people more than caring about himself. He just wants to be included. A part of the group. A part of the gang. Never the lonely one.

Faifa’s Personality: Selflessness and Positivity

In the beginning few episodes, he made many friends. Every time he was on the screen, he'd be talking to someone new. But that reduced as the show went on and he started prioritizing the people he liked and giving them more time. In the second year, he took classes with Gun's friends again. He spent more time with them, forming a more deeper connection.

He loves looking at the positive side of things and giving you the comfort of being with him. He has developed a selfless personality using this mechanism which are the reasons why he helps anyone with no greed attached to it other than hoping the other person feels at ease with him. The kind of ease that he probably didn't feel himself back at his mother's house. There are many examples but I chose a few that I could find my quick rewatch:

When he lets Yotha choose the bed

When he sacrifices his own room and comfort for a friend he met like a week ago

When he buys Wine a ton of things after spilling milk on him to compensate for his mistake

When he goes for that run but ends up giving away his bottle to someone else that didn't bring one and almost died of dehydration because of it

Is Faifa people pleaser? No, while he genuinely cares for others, he isn’t afraid to stand his ground or fight for what he truly believes in. The way he fought his own brother for Gun proves how he truly cares for people.

The Impact of Faifa’s Mother

To me, his mother is the biggest cause of his mess. We can see since the first episode, how Yotha openly struggles with their mother, but Faifa's pain is hidden behind a facade of niceness and brightness. But she is the root cause of his trauma and hurt.

He treats her very nicely and gives her all the benefits of doubts even though she has treated him the worst among the siblings . Since she took him with her, he was always ready to defend her in front of Yotha.

I understand her evil game that she wanted to keep the family united by keeping Faifa away so he'd want to visit them again and again. Keeping the family together. But at least care for the kid you've brought home. One glaring example is her ignorance of Faifa’s allergies. How can a mother not know something so basic about her child? Her absence in Faifa’s life speaks volumes about the depth of his trauma.

This brings me to my next point about their mother. Her bias against Newton and Yotha. She very clearly favors Newton and Yotha. The favor could possibly root from her guilt for abandoning these two for her second marriage. However, this favoritism manifests as horrible neglect toward Faifa. She took him with her but failed to care for him, isolating him from his loved ones and leaving him emotionally abandoned.

The Unspoken Apology

In the 16th episode, as she opens up about her mistakes, she mends her relationship with Yotha by asking for his forgiveness, but what about Faifa?? Just because he doesn’t outwardly express anger or sadness doesn’t mean he isn’t hurting.

Her adult mind games affected both her kids, Yotha and Faifa, yet Faifa’s pain seems overlooked. Where is his apology? Or is his kindness and bright attitude taken for granted???

Honestly, I need more from the mother to even think that she loves Faifa. He probably doesn't have the heart to truly say it back right now.

After the hugs and when she is talking to Gun, everyone has clearly gained their normal momentum except him. He is still reeling from the confession. New wounds have opened up for him that he probably doesn't know how to heal. After all he was the little kid that got the worst end of the divorce.

Faifa’s Current State

These days, he is more loud with his insecurities and it is getting harder for him to mask his sadness. He despises being alone and tries his desperately to avoid that. His laughter sometimes sounds forced, as if, masking an underlying pain.

Hope for Healing

Hopefully, in the future episodes, Wine gives him the space to express his emotions truthfully, I hope he cares for him and loves him a lot because after so much trauma he truly deserves some healing and genuine affection. Despite his past, he continues to shine brightly, offering warmth and kindness to those around him. Hopefully, Wine's arrival makes it better for him.