A God's Desire
Yoonsun is afraid of hurting Vin, she's self-aware of the things she has done and committed to in the past, and how it can spark up Vin Jin’s trauma. At one point she tried too hard, trying to protect Vin Jin from her shuddering actions which ended up in him thinking that Yoonsun was avoiding him, he was confused and almost hurt, Yoonsun didn’t know that, she was just trying to put a distance between the two of them so the likelihood of hurting her most precious treasure was as low as possible. She didn’t intend to hurt him in the process, that was the last thing she ever wanted. Slamming herself onto the floor while hand grasping her curls tightly she screamed at Vin Jin who stood confused and concerned in front of her. Telling him to piss off and get away from her that she never wants to see him again. No– stop, she didn’t mean any of it, it just came spilling out of her, she just wanted everything to be ok for him– for them both.
It was stupid, honestly to think that this would work between them anyways, no matter what Yoonsun did, she seemed to hurt Vin Jin– always somehow in the end, this wasn’t fair, for once in her life she had thought maybe that her good fortune could come in good use, after all, she was seen as goddess throughout her entire childhood, so why was she only inflicting pain on him– the only person who seen her– for who she truly is and not that goddamn persona that she had played for 12 years. So why, why couldn’t she bring fortune and happiness to Vin Jin? Why must she hurt everyone she ever wanted to protect? What a playful prank the gods had sprung on her. Crumbling her hope and desire to be loved and to live a normal life.
(Her background/lore got so much loopholes sighs..)
