#yoi thoughts

Yuuri didn’t know any of it. Yuuri was drunk and still thought he was “the woman who tried to seduce Viktor”. Yuuri even preferred being “the woman” in his Eros performance than “the playboy” because that what he actually was. Yuuri would never hurt Viktor. Okay, Yuuri might hurt Viktor when he acted as if he didn’t remember anything about that night or thought Eros to him was pork cutlet bowl but he was drunk, he didn’t know and it wasn’t his fault at all. Also, when Yuuri told Viktor he wanted to retire, Yuuri wasn’t being selfish but he just thought Viktor wanted to go back to the ice and how could Viktor go back if Viktor still staying on as his coach.

However, this never makes sense to me until I think of “Stammi Vicino”.

“Stammi Vicino” is a song that tells a story of the man who is afraid to lose someone he loves. And I think the reason why this song is about Yuuri and Viktor, it is because they thought they were “the woman” who would be dumped by “the playboy”. (Okay, I’m not good at English but what I’m trying to say is they were afraid to lose each other.)

Still, I’m not sure if I understand this right but it makes sense to me and I just wow, whoever creates this wonderful plot twist is a genius and deserves an Oscars.

Because if you just take a moment and look

Look at all of this

None of these two

None of these two was “the playboy”

They were just two people who fell in love and thought they would be left by one of them someday but in the end, it turned out to be that they felt the same and they couldn’t live without each other. And if there was “the playboy” in the series, I think it was them, it was them who thought of each other as “the playboy”. It’s like they ended up being “the playboy” without knowing that they were. Yuuri was “the playboy” when he was drunk and Viktor was “the playboy” when he suddenly came into Yuuri’s life. It’s just like Viktor was “the playboy” in Yuuri’s eyes and Yuuri was “the playboy” in Viktor’s eyes. But, at the same time, in their thoughts, they always were “the woman” because they were just so afraid to lose each other. 

And isn’t it pure and beautiful to think of them this way? Because I do.

***Note

- When I say which one of them is “the woman” and “the playboy”, it doesn’t mean I think “Viktor is the woman like a real woman” or “Yuuri is the playboy like a real man”. When I say Yuuri and Viktor think they are “the woman”, “the woman” means “someone who is surrendered by someone they fall in love with” and “the playboy” means “someone who tries to make someone to fall in love with them”. (What I’m trying to say is this isn’t about a gender at all. This is just a story of two people who fall in love and it’s beautiful.) 

- These are the reasons why “Yuri on Ice” program is the most purest program. In Yuuri’s fp, there was nothing like in “Eros”. In this program, It was just about Yuuri, Yuuri’s love for his skating and Viktor who helped him realizing all of that. And it just makes me want to cry to think because Yuuri surprised Viktor every goddamn time in this program. He also even won by this program which it was the program that he didn’t have to think about being “the woman” or “trying seduce Viktor”. Yuuri was just being himself in this program and Viktor was always surprised by it. Viktor even kissed Yuuri and cried because of it. (Here’s the compilation of the difference between two programs if you’re interested.)