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It hurts so much, I’m so tired of this. I can’t fucking exist like this any longer, do you even know how exhausted I am? Every day I wake up and my body and mind betray me, why was I born to be in pain? I’ve stopped performing pain out of convenience and now people accuse me of faking it, god I wish I was. I wish I was healthy, I’d do fucking anything to be healthy, I’m so tired

It's bad again, the constant agonizing pressure building between my ribs that makes my lungs feel like they're going to explode with every inhale is back. I cannot take a full breath without wondering if this is the one that finally pushes too far and snaps something out of place. Memories of the last time it was this bad flood my head, the vivid image of my frail and broken body curled up on the bathroom tiles letting out shallow sobs and begging for some omnipotent force to just fucking kill me already appears in my mind. I’m not sure how much more of this I can take, how many more times I can repeat this process, I am not strong enough.

I’m getting real fucking tired of being incapable of dragging myself to the shower even though I reek because my brain and my body just decided not to work today