#yawnanyaps

sighhh

i remember during the mandarin class i took in middle school, we learned about how to say family member terms

ge ge, jie jie, mei mei, ma ma, ba ba, da ge

or greyrose or just greysexual

like maybe its just my experience with romance or that i don’t really want a romantic relationship, i just want someone to be my person

like im not AGAINST have a romantic relationship…. i just cant rlly see it.

btw my boyfie and i havent broken up or anything…… i just think that im only okay with our relationship becoz we dont really kiss or do much “romantic” stuff

we can hang out and talk and sit together and like touch if we want but it’s not like….. boyfriend girlfriend i’d say

im not wven a girl. like i am but i dont identify exactly???? idk. im going through self discovery or something (T T)

like. i go by ANYTHING. like i’ve known since like middle school when i told ppl they could refer to me as “rat.” crazy times….. ( >_<“)

but like….. never a guy. i think being a boy would be great cuz men are so privileged but it’s exactly becoz of those reasons that i just cannot be a boy. I LOVE BEING AFAB IDC

love how this went from me rambling abt my sexuality to my pronouns and identity. so fun for a thursday night

i dont need to get high to feel euphoric

if everything i feel and perceive is becoz of what my brain filters through, i CHOOSE to see everything through a neon rainbow lens in the sense that doing so will equate to fulfillment and everylasting joy

im feeling like that one clip from a movie ive never actually watched but used to hear like every other week

i mean like….. ill say something and get IGNORED but when someone speaks up rigjt after, EVERYONE else responds :….(

idk. maybe im just so unknown and stuff that ppl think im weird <//3

i freakin swear i feel like a chud (T T)

like i DO have friends and i love all of them so much, we just don’t talk as often cus they all have…..their…..own……friends………

ok this sounds sad but GUYS pls.

sighhhh i swear im so cool :(( maybe im just looking for friends in the wrong crowd of people

its okay ill find people who want to be friends!!!!!!

why cant these tutorials abt html and css be for real. PLS DONT BEAT AROUNDTHE BUSH AND PAUSE EVERY SIX WORDS ITS CONFUSING ME

anywya

⚠️ ⚠️FREAKY WARNING‼️‼️⚠️⚠️👀👀

i need someone to finger me. ben drowned ur ass isnt safe from me.

absolute zero to one hundred 😭😭😭😭