oh please can you write something with ace jimmy olsen đ maybe something where he and reader are both ace and reader helps jimmy realise he is, or one where heâs worried about not being enough only for the reader to also be ace đ
Relationship(s):Â asexual!Jimmy Olsen x gn!asexual!reader (romantic)
Summary:Â You and Jimmy have been on a few dates now. He decides it's time to tell you something important. Based on past experiences, he's afraid that it's a dealbreaker.
Warnings:Â Referenced acephobia; internalised acephobia; ace-related dating struggles; food/eating. (Let me know if I need to add any)
Word count:Â 1.2k
(A/N: As I've mentioned in a previous post, I love the interpretation of Jimmy being on the ace spectrum. He's what I like to call a 'Jessica Rabbit asexual', in that he is canonically very attractive to other people, but that sexuality is imposed upon him more than it's something he experiences for himself. It's one of my favourite ace character types. Also, this isn't me saying that you have to interpret Jimmy as being ace or that I think that he is or should be canonically ace. But, as an ace person, I think it's a neat way to think about his character. And, on that note, I have to add the disclaimer that this is very much from my own experiences and feelings around my own asexuality. Apologies if you're an ace reader and you don't like my portrayal of asexuality. I do admit, the few ace!reader fics I've written are centred around insecurity and/or coming out, so apologies if you're tired of that kind of fic. Of course, if you have any requests, ace-based, Jimmy-based or not, my inbox is always open!)
Jimmy couldnât help but think something was wrong with him. He attracted women so effortlessly â an everyday superpower that most men would give a whole arm for. And, as sweet and pretty as most of these women were, he couldnât bring himself to do what he was expected to do with their attention. Whether they knew it or not, he tried so hard to make it work, but ultimately he couldnât. Some of them were patient and understanding. Some of them thought heâd messed around with their feelings. If he wasnât so confused and so in his own head about what the hell was the matter with him, he might have felt even guiltier about it.
Was he even attracted to women? The question had popped up in his mind a few times. Maybe if he got propositioned by someone who wasnât a woman, that would be that. Heâd be fully into it. Heâd just be one of those gay dudes who women couldnât help but fall for. But, he wasnât gay, either. That's not to say he was straight. When he thought about it, he liked the idea of dating anyone, no matter what their gender was. His problem â the thing he couldnât get over â was the whole thing of him not being all too eager about sex, contrary to what people might assume given his strange magnetism.
Sex was this vital aspect of relationships â Jimmy knew that. And, he knew, if he didnât feel sexual attraction to anyone, and if sex wasnât part of any ideal future relationship he might have, itâd be a dealbreaker for a lot of people. It had been. So, to stick himself with a label that could potentially doom him and his prospects at finding a relationship⌠well, as much as the label resonated with him, and as much comfort as he found in knowing that he wasnât alone, he was a little scared, truth be told.
This worry loomed over him as he started to fall for you. It was why he held off on asking you out, because it seemed unfair to be the one to initiate anything with you if he knew full well that he wouldnât be able to give you what all of his past partners had wanted. But, as always, he only had to wait for you to ask him. You were so nervous that heâd have felt cruel turning you down â not to mention, of course, he really did want to go out with you. And, so he did. He was so charmed by you that, after a few dates, he almostâ almostâ forgot about the issue of sex. But, the more he felt himself falling for you, the guiltier he felt. There wasnât any reason for him to feel guilty, of course.
Regardless, that guilt is why he found himself sitting across from you at a quaint little diner â his suggestion, his treat. As heâd hoped, it was pretty much deserted, besides a group of four teenagers sitting on the opposite side of the diner and the two waitresses who were busying themselves by cleaning tables. The pair of you sat in silence as you ate. It would have been comfortable if Jimmy wasnât agonising over the idea of telling you about the thing that had ended so many promising relationships. Even though he was close to full, he wished he had another burger or another serving of fries to keep his mouth out of action. But, he knew that itâd be better for the both of you if he just got this over with. Delaying the inevitable would only make things worse.
âSo, uhââ He cleared his throat. âI think Iâd better tell you something before things get too serious.â
âSure.â You covered your mouth as you spoke, the last bite of food still mushed up in your mouth. âIs everything okay?â
He scratched his eyebrow and let out a nervous chuckle.
âYeah. No. I mean, I donât know.â
You grabbed your napkin and scrubbed the corners of your mouth and your fingers, conscious of the fact that you didnât want to have shit all over your face when Jimmy was talking about something serious.
âWhatâs up?â
âI⌠I donât know how to explain it all that well. But, I, uh, I guess⌠people assume Iâm, like, some ladies man and that I sleep around. Maybe you do too. But, actually, Iâm not into⌠sex.âÂ
You nodded.
âOkay.â
âI like you â I really like you,â he added, panic in his tone. âBut, not in a way that involves sex⌠And⌠if thatâs a dealbreaker for you, thatâs okay. I just⌠I figured I should tell you now, before things go too far.â
As he awaited his fate, he looked anywhere but at you. Though, the second you spoke, his eyes darted straight to you.
âI donât wanna put words in your mouth or make you label yourself or anything but⌠are you asexual?â
âProbably. Yeah.â
âWhat about aromantic?â
He shook his head.
âNo. Justâjust⌠asexual.â
You noticed his hesitation to use the word and you offered him a small, reassuring smile. Heâd barely said the word aloud before â about himself, anyway. Itâd cycled through his head plenty of times but it still scared him with how definitive it felt, no matter how accurate it was to his experience. Every time heâd tested it out, it filled him with nerves as much as it relieved him, in the way that only the truth could.Â
He knew there was nothing wrong with him or any other ace person. Not everyone agreed with that, and even those who were accepting of asexuality werenât always open to dating ace people. The people he attracted tended to fall in that latter camp. At the very least, it was nice to be met with support even when it was, more often than not, the end of things, like with any incompatibility in a relationship. He couldnât begrudge anyone for their needs in a relationship, in the same way he hoped they didnât begrudge him for his, but he couldnât deny that it hurt.
âWell,â you said. âI donât want to take away from your moment or anything, but this is probably a good time to tell you that Iâm asexual.â
Jimmy stared at you for a moment before replying.
âYouâre asexual?âÂ
âYep.â
âSoâŚâ
âSo, you donât have to worry about sex with me, okay? The feelingâs mutual. No offence. Your charms only work so much on me.â
At that, Jimmy let out a much needed laugh. His posture relaxed as all that built-up tension left his body. A wobbly smile tugged at the corners of his lips. Tears brimmed his eyes. You reached across the table and grabbed his hand; you knew exactly how he felt, having been in his position plenty of times. It broke your heart that heâd been so nervous, no doubt from rejection after rejection. It wasnât all doom and gloom for ace people, of course â this moment was evidence of that â but it sure felt like that sometimes. Youâd be lying if you denied getting a little choked up as well.
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So after originally identifying as ace and deciding to just use the term queer because of uncertainty about my specific sexuality, I've realised that I am, in fact, more than likely asexual after all. There's probably a more specific label under that umbrella that would fit me, but ace is good enough for me lol. Anyway, with this 'realisation', I'd like to write some more ace!reader fics. When I eventually start writing for TWD, I plan on doing some ace!Daryl x ace!reader fics. Other than that, I'm at a loss for who to write for. So, please send in some requests!
