A stopwatch

Holds time in place

As its hands circumnavigates its face

Stopping briefly to count the seconds

Displaying information to those who can read and decipher its cryptic message

A revelation that goes beyond one's understanding

Time is limited yet endless

A common commodity

That's value is priceless

11/4/21

though the leaves remain an evergreen

And the trees they stand so tall

Towering over crescent streams 

While the water stands there still 

No frost lightly coats its rippled waves

Yet, the wind, it sighs a chill 

That i've lost count of my own bones

Oh the shape iam in, ive grown tired of it

Once i was a dreamer caught in-between

Death or life grand me either

I hear no song, no whisper

Of green nor are my lungs crying for air

The strand of a hair that iam walking on,

I have been walking since adam first learned

To name or when shame became a thing

It seems never ending grand me my wish and break this bridge

Let my flesh burn till it turnes black

Let me crawl outside of this skin

Ive grown tired of prayers and screams

Rise in Love - Embrace the Unknown and the unknowable

One of the greatest part of our life's concerns encompasses around unknown and unknowable. The great Uncertainty.

This is one of the reasons we are fearful of death. We really do not know what happens after we die. We hear or read about them in various forms , yet due to lack of direct experience the fear persists.

Entering into any new things or change in life situations also invokes this unknown and unknowable. It is possible you an expert in your field yet that element of unknown daunts . We make all human possible plans in our mind, do our research, howsoever we are prepared the elements of unknown lingers.

I am no exception. I am you. This uncertainty leads to anxiety, restlessness another cause of suffering. In the years gone by I have been introduced to various tools like EFT (emotional freedom technique), Ho’oponopono ( ancient Hawaiian practice), "The Work" by Byron Katie , Violet Flame and many more so in event of unknown or unknowable or both, I would choose one or more tools and practice them to clear the emotions and feelings of tightness. Till it feels light again and wait for the guidance to be received. It takes persistence and perseverance, sometimes mind gives up too. Many times when I am able to clear my inner beliefs and conditioning I have experienced ease and see light , feel light and life is good again.

My teacher has been vibrating differently off late that is something i had noticed since full moon of month of May (the channel of Blessing he is always has now been sending some radical life changing teachings), in one of the night session freely available to the world ( the library of Nithya's night sessions are in YouTube), he took us through the journey what he called - Rise in love - Love the unknown and unknowable. He bought the most pertinent topic of human sufferings without beating around any tools or methods. This time there was no via route. It was bulls eye, you cannot miss it (if you miss then you must be looking in opposite direction). I felt like its zero with that twist making it infinite.

He said - When an unknown and unknowable or just any one aspect appear, you have to love it. He paused and continued to mention it again. Found it so simple that my mind could not comprehend. For the first few moments honestly I did not get it. Now it was my turn to pause to get the sense within what was mentioned, because I sensed it was home coming at heart.

This is what I felt - When one is grasping for breath, this was 'that oxygen' the lifesaver , that was the power and potency of this teaching. It is not the one which we do not even realize on Normal day during inhalation and exhalation.

I felt Archimedes had entered my body and I was dancing Eureka Eureka!!

The flow and the essence was exactly like Mother's love which is complete in itself. "Love the unknown and unknowable". It went a step deeper when we were asked to love ,just like the way we feel love is, how we define our love. Giving the choice to love anything just like yourself felt personal freedom, the infinite possibilities of loving.

I reviewed the present moment of my life of unknown and unknowable (oh, there are loads , piles that was lying everywhere) and just embraced each with great love. I felt so good (I do not have a better word to express), as if meeting my mother after a very long time and her hug was the most precious gift which i could not trade off with anything. This was the medicine that I was looking forward up until now, I am in LOVE, drunk in LOVE, insanely in LOVE. I have multifold things now to LOVE. More I love, more I am LOVE.

Now onwards I have only 1 mantra - just love unknown and unknowable, I really do not know or now I do not have any intention to know what happens after that.

You see I am in Love :-) !!!

standards,

that don’t equate

to yours.

if perfection

weighed worth

i’d only ever

come up short,

insecurities stay exposing

the fragmented

pieces of me,

but you placed

an unfamiliar song

inside my heart,

and from the tethers

of my limitations