#wugh.

like i used to go on walks around my neighborhood and stuff and i eventually got to the point where that just wasnt fucking possible anymore. i cant sit for too long or stand for too long and i have to make a conscious effort to hold up my head.

and like. do you have any idea how fucking frustrating that is? how EMBARRASSING it is? to know you could do something once and now its almost impossible? it makes it so unbelievably easy to be mad at yourself. because you could do those things once, you could and it was easy. so you should be able to do them still! but you cant! and now its all gone and you feel like a toddler learning how to walk for the first time.

My acting class is talking a lot about what it means to grow and mature and I honestly measure a lot of my growth in my art's growth. So... I felt the desire to rework a six year old character of mine.

(psst! you can check under the cut for a look at her old designs!)