#writijg

Rudolph once told me i wouldn't mke it

all of the kids laugh at my insecurities couldn't bare to retaliate. the fuck boi

mentality waS engrained in my subconscious and the feeling of joy i fleeted me for good i dont feel like i feel as normal humans do

how does my mind take control over what i think.. my emotions dont make sense

people cant expect greatness to come when no actions are taken.. no communication is made and nothing is being done to improve to move forward..

-- people say that but it also holds true for me...

hidden behind these looks is a whole another me. casual drama on the day to day life sometimes feels like a mystery.. i cant think of any reason it just doesn't make sense like im fucked up in the head. my feeling arent like normal people and its a way i cant quite put into words to describe. this mentality i possess i forgot you were having a family lunch that i was invited to your house on christmas s i woke up. and my mom asked me to go to st bernadettes at 1.. so my mom woke me up we ate breakfast and drake coffee. I fell back asleep then went to my cousins. the hosetelle’s where we were for the halloween party.. my mom knew i didn't want to go to mass so i guess i fll asleep and woke fucked up.