But it's a good different. This year will be a good one for me. I'm going to save like mad to see my friends in England. Then, I'll learn to drive & possibly get myself a car. I'm also planning on buying my brothers PC. So right now I've got a lot to save for and very little money to do that with. My trial has been going well though, hopefully I'll get the job in a couple weeks! Then it makes life easier. I'd love my stuff back & money, it means I could fucking leave already, something I've been wanting to do for quite a while. But I'm still being held back per usual. I want nothing to do with her anymore, I want my stuff & money & I want the fuck out. I'm growing tired & my patience is thinning out, if there was any decency anywhere, I would've got my stuff by now. It's been 4 months now, nearly 5. There's no excuse now. I'm done fucking waiting. I'm being too generous with the time I'm giving, if my shit isn't here or my money given back by the end of, let's say possibly August. Well, measures will be taken. Getting my retainers tomorrow though! Positivity will win over this nonsense, I'm tired of feeling like crap because of the past. That's over and done with now, looking forward to my future. A future without her :').