Toxic
As time went by, the versions of ourselves that fell in love, became non existent. We used to have so much fun together but lately, our relationship feels like a chore. Somehow, our memories went from being our favorite moments together to just a list of mistakes we made, which we tend to bring up during our next argument. Time has made us a bit bitter and completely spiteful towards one another. It's not like we wake up fighting but it does seem like we are just waiting for the other person to do something that pushes us to the edge. Our atmosphere has become so toxic that people don't even like to be around when we are together. We are too prideful to walk away from what we have, but too stubborn to work things out. Even now, as I acknowledge how unhealthy our situation has become, I remain clueless on how to correct the matter. Logic says we need to talk things out but realistically, when we do, both of us are more concerned about getting our point across as opposed to understanding where the other person is coming from. Some may argue that we just aren't right for each other but I don't believe that we are each other's biggest problem. All the other aspects of our lives must have become so overwhelming that we have no choice but to retaliate on one another. It's almost as if we are forced to figure out how to help ourselves instead of helping each other. Why did we ever stop being a team? When did we begin to feel like we couldn't talk about the things on our mind? I look at you and just want to say sorry but I don't even know what to apologize for anymore. It's been so long since we've been on good terms that I'm starting to believe that we must be enemies. There's no reason why things should be this way, and if you truly believe it just as I do, then why haven't we done anything about it?
