"But see he hasn't ruined me, he may of for a day or two, but I'm so much better without him. Sure I'm hurt and once I've healed to be honest I wouldn't mind if he is in a small part of my life still. He meant so much to me for so long and I would hate for another person to have such a massive impact on me to be out of my life."
This is maturity, and this is growing up!Â
I was talking to my friend about my ex, and well he sent me a text the other day that hit me a bit, he said, "I know you still hate me but I hope you're doing well." See the thing is, I don't hate him, hate is an incredibly strong word. I'm hurt, he broke my heart into a thousand pieces and it is still healing.Â
I replied with a very polite, "Hate is a very strong word, I don't hate you. I'm doing great thanks, I hope you're doing well too."
Sure I'm only 21, but I DO NOT and have refused to be the crazy ex girlfriend. Some of my mates have had them and you should hear the way they talk about them. Sure I've said some horrible things about him, I've ripped up photos, when doing boxing I imagine his head are the mits, but I do this in my own privacy because it does not need to be a public matter.Â
I decided as soon as our relationship ended, I wanted to be as mature about it all as I could be, I still wanted his friends to like me, cause I still adore them and have fun with them when I see them out. I decided that even though in 2015, I am going to let my hair down, I'm still going to be more mature than I have been in the past. Considering now I'm 21, I want to act (as much as I can) like the grown up the world expects me to be, although, I'm still going to party and travel whenever my little heart desires. I'm not going to get into a serious relationship, but if I fancy someone, I might date them, or just sleep with them. I want to be a better, happier version of me, that I lost for so many years and I think by being mature about everything, I am being that person.
I just wanted to share this with everyone because, I'm proud of myself for acting this way, for not being the crazy ex, but for being the mature person. It's not like I'm making a huge step or anything, I'm just proud :)