#working progmess

Today is the first day I've not cried in about a week. I had a bit of a heavy heart this morning and had some moments when I felt I could have started crying but i hope I'm getting out the other end!

I'm so excited to feel like me again.

So today has been mostly lows. I've cried a lot today and I've still not been able to listen to music without upsetting myself. I however think I'm coming out the other end slightly. I'm trying to see the positives in small things so I think today I need to start listing nice things that happend so I don't dwell on the sadness

- I went to a customer today to introduce myself and afterwards, he added me on Instagram and I laughed at the thought this 23 year old thought I was hot or of age to be added online

- my boss was incredibly kind to me even when I was a feeling low

- my mum left me soup in the fridge so I didn't need to worry about making dinner when I came home from my travels

- I got to see the new episode of ted lasso which was really lovely to see

- people on the dating sites have been really lovely and it's making me detached a bit and feel less offended when someone doesn't message me back

- I've narrowed my close friends down on Instagram so I can be vulnerable with the people I care about instead of who I think is my close friends

- my dad has kindly sorted out my front door so I just need to paint it pretty

- I have a quiet day tomorrow planned but I'm going to go to Starbucks and sort out all my reports while our and about so I don't feel so alone

I'll get there but to get over it, you need to go through it 🖤

Here is a picture of the hotel I stayed in last night for work

I'm not doing any better and I'm still feeling so empty

I don't even have anything to say apart from I'm so lonely.

It wasn't too bad a morning today. I went to work and spoke to some familiar faces on my calls. It definitely perked me up. I went to get the girls and I cakes from Lily Bakes and went to Braehead to shop about for a bit.

Id be listening to my playlist that I add to when someone recommends a song so I can learn new genres. It came onto a song and I was listening to the lyrics and I just reverted back to my somber mood. Felt lost and stupid for thinking I was important to this person who broke my heart. Ended up spoiling my mood and had to grab a coffee and sit myself before going round to my friends house. However, my friend kindly done some research on my situationship and advised he was following multiple women and liking many inappropriate pictures so my hurt has now turned to rage.

Rage is better than crying right ? probably not but It beats crying over a manhoore

This was my fortune cookie from today and I'm actually going to listen to it this time!