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This year has been a rollercoaster ride for me and the decisions I made in my life. I never felt this powerful (personally) on the impact, my personal decisions can have in my life. I am just so thankful I have my family, my friends and all the genuine people surrouding me — who continue push, believe in me and see what I am capable of. On top of this are my parents, sisters and our family who never second guessed of what I am capable of achieving or doing. They just believe in me and everything that I do, no questions asked. Just 100% percent full support.

Growing up, I tend to be a planner on everything that I do and it frustrates me if I does not meet what I plan. Through the years, I had my life planned and written on what milestones I should have at certain age and at a certain time. But late last year, due to an pivotal event in my life and just before my birthday, I decided to be of ease and let things happen as they wish to be. I learned to trust on the process, believe in my faith, listened to my insticts and gave in to my impulses. And voila, opportunities opened and life gave me so much blessings and learnings — not sure if I even deserve. From that day onwards, it came like a free flow of what life can offer to me, just yet and without me even thinking about it. I just gladly receive whatever opportunity came, made the most out of it and seized it. Carpe diem! That’s how I lived.

Acknowledge them.

Your feelings matter.

Embrace them.

Welcome not people

Who invalidates them &

We are never “not ready”’ for something.

We are never “not right”’ for someone.

We are never “too early” for everything.

This year I’m clinging on to commitment.

Know your worth, you are more than that.

There could be times when people will need us — our expertise or helping hand or in any other way we would think about. It’s empowering and makes our hearts filled with gladness to be of help and service to others. Rewarding to a sense even a simple sweet smile, “thank you” or — compensation — make up for it all, even how tiring it can be. A great blessing to share and a wonderful blessing to care for others. Cliche as it may sound, “It’s better to give than to receive.” And’ll come back to you — hundredfold.

But really, have it not came to a point when you feel consumed, tired out or even so, emptied? To be of help of others is a blessing but let us not forget, my friend, to be of help to ourselves, too. We all need to rest and take a break, too. To become unavailable so we can fill that up again. Re-charge — it can even overflow to those whom we will give back again.

When will it ever be right?

When will timing be perfect?

But hey, will it ever be?

All those sweet nothings

15 days since we have been quarantined — we were asked to trust the process and stay safe in the comforts of our home. A lot has happened worldwide and I could not exactly pinpoint how everything came to this day and when will it actually come to an end. Not an impasse but none of us know, yet.

Hopeful — this is what keeps us all going. From the moment we open our eyes to start another day until we close our eyes to sleep just thinking that the morning can bring about great news we have all been waiting for. That one day we will all be declared as free from this “novel” coronavirus or have a treatment to it — lessening the infectivies, putting stop to deaths and improving health outcomes.

In this trying times, we have been flooded with so much negativities around us, bad news as we refresh our timelines and count of deaths, here and there. And, I could not help but be affected and be saddened by everything that’s happening. At times, I even felt helpless but, never hopeless.

Amidst all and despite of, I chose to keep the positive things this has brought us — from the first day we were asked to stay home. The little things most of us wanted to have — wake up at the time we want, have a time for a cup of coffee, quality time with the family, read the books we want, cook a dish we never tried, do something we never did, clean the house, make time with friends, practice tutorials, work from home, binge watch, sleep in between then repeat. All the things we want were provided for us — except that we could not go out. Just not yet, for now.

All these things I am thankful because we have been given the luxury of time to be safe and be with our families. Realizing such, all this we could not do and not even survive without the faith in Him. That this all has a reason and this all shall eventually come to an end. Our prayer goes to everyone who is fighting with us in this battle. Every single person around the globe, we include — the well, the elderly and the sick.

Every single day, I am hopeful that our faith will always be bigger than any fear we have in mind, that the peace we feel today is because we are secured that we will be saved by His grace, compassion and mercy. That we may put our trust in Him.