#womxncircle

WORTHINESS . Last night in @shaktisoulcollective #womxncircle @jessicajeanmuir asked us to write a love letter to ourselves. . I immediately started overthinking it... YAY ANXIETY! . I caught myself took a deep breath, closed my eyes and asked what I needed to hear. . “You don’t have to earn worthy.” My intuition whispered back to me. . I am a notorious perfectionist who feels like my worthiness is inherently tied to what I earn. I’m learning to soften and realized I am worthy simply as I am. . What do you need to hear today? . . 📸 @lumynphotography . . #portraitphotography #portrait_shots #blackandwhitephotography #portraits #facetimephotoshoot #worthyoflove #worthy #worthyaf #womenscircles #womenscircle #divinefeminine #divinefeminineenergy #divinefemininerising #wildwomansisterhood #wildwomanrising #wildwoman #wolfwoman #feminineenergy #healingjourney #healing #witchesofinstagram🔮🌙 #witchyvibes https://www.instagram.com/p/CALsW3VD7uy/?igshid=1w3gtvfwht5eh

Maybe I share some of me and my story so openly to trick everyone into thinking I’m being vulnerable when in reality I’m hiding so much of myself. . Maybe I talk about what happened so I don’t have to talk about how it made me feel. So I can ignore the sadness I left lingering in my heart because I didn’t know how to deal with it. . Maybe I needed to share those parts to be ready to share the deeper stuff. Maybe I needed all of it to bring me here. . Maybe I’m too hard on myself. Maybe I could have more grace with myself. . Maybe I’m just uncovering the next layer underneath what I’ve already shared. . Maybe sharing our real and honest selves with the world is what we need more of. . Maybe I’ve been missing the point of sitting with my crap all along. Maybe I didn't really know how to do that. Maybe I still don’t. Maybe I have always known and there’s just most crap to sit with. . Maybe I know what feeling truly alone and scared feels like so anything that resembles it makes me panic. . Maybe I’m not alone. Maybe there’s a lot of us who carry the weight of our mental illnesses alone. Maybe we talk about it in passing. Maybe we don’t. . Maybe we need to share what it’s really like, so we can all feel a little less alone. . To read more about my journey with learning to talk about mental health head over to my website. . . #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #anxietywarrior #anxietywarriors #depressionawareness #depressionsupport #youarenotalone #womenscircle #womxncircle #healingjourney #healingtrauma #healingyourself #mentalhealthcare #mentalhealthblog https://www.instagram.com/p/B8KSaclnP4u/?igshid=1gx1za23v2txs

#challengeaccepted 🖤 @suzanngela @alleyannie . I am extremely honored to have been nominated but also, standing in my radical honesty, felt kind of left out until I was. It occurred to me that I might not be the only one to experience that little pang. . It got me thinking that maybe we’re perpetuating what we were taught as young girls about needing to be in the “in crowd”. . So, I’m breaking the rules (if you know me I know you’re all falling over yourselves shocked) this is my open invitation to all of the beautiful amazing incredible womxn in my life to jump in and celebrate yourself in your power! . Tag me so I can share every single one of you in my stories 💕 . . Photo by @lumynphotography . . #womxnsupportingwomxn #womxncircle #womenempowerment #divinefeminine #womeninspiringwomen #divinefemininerising #divinefeminineenergy #womenscircle #womensupportingwomen #wildwomen #shaktirising #shaktisoulcollective #growth #shadowworker #shadowwork #denverwomen #challengenotaccepted #coloradogirlgang #coloradogirls #coloradogirl #coloradowomen https://www.instagram.com/p/CDMKvdRjdPZ/?igshid=x5u9d2symv7t

SISTER WOUND . This wound runs so deep. . The first cut happened as a child was when I felt a womxn play a big role in breaking up my family. It created a fear of other womxn, a sense of competition with other womxn, a lack of trust. . The cuts kept coming after that. Girls talking nicely to my face and viciously behind my back. . The cuts kept coming when society showed me that we womxn were all in competition with one another, mostly for male attention. . One of the deepest cuts came from me perpetuating the wound to other womxn. That’s the thing about the wound, it’s exacerbated when we are hurt but also when we are the ones doing the hurting. . I feel it now when womxn are cruel to me because my bigness triggers them. . It wasn’t always this way. For a long time we lived in a community focused way with womxn supporting each other to lead, feed, raise children and so much more. . We were and are a FORCE together which is why the patriarchy loves to tear us apart. We are weaker when insecure and alone than we are as a collective force of nature. . It is in this moment I need to thank @jessicajeanmuir for creating @shaktisoulcollective and this safe and beautiful collective to hold me as I heal this wound. . Special shoutout to this goddess queen photographed with me @suzanngela who has made Denver feel a little more like home and the not photographer here QUEEN who shot all these magical photos @lumynphotography who is a bright light in this 🌎 . . . #sisterwound #healingjourney #healingenergy #womenscircle #womxncircle #wildwomen #womensupportingwomen #wildwomanrising #wildwomansisterhood #wildwoman #mountaingirls #photoshoot #divinefeminine #divinefeminineenergy #divinefemininerising #rewildingforwomen #womenlove #grlpwr https://www.instagram.com/p/CCrXywOjhVU/?igshid=5h87j9cq5ihl

BODY IDEALS . We’re all bogged down by the weight of ideals society has shoved down our throats. Women, men, thick, thin, tall, short we all have things we’re insecure about. . Before I took the photo I was freaking out because I thought the bikini was going to cut into my sides and I HATED that feeling growing up, but I also hated it when I weighed 35lbs less and was a shell of myself. . Before I took this photo I was thinking about how my thighs would look? How no matter what I lift or how far I run they’re always thick and always fucking rub against each other in the summer (PSA I bought body glide...holy shit what have I been doing my whole life without it). . guess what? None of it has anything to do with the way we look and everything to do with the weight of the expectations we carry. . Those thick thighs carry me miles and up mountains and lift heavy things. That stomach holds space for food to nourish me. . What if today we shifted our focus to HOW we feel in our bodies instead of WHAT we feel about our bodies? . What would change? . . . . #bodylovebabes #selflovejourney #bodylovesquad #bodylove4all #womxncircle #womenscircle #womencircle #bikinilifestyle #shaktisoulcollective #mountaingirlsdoitbetter #mountaingirls #mountaingirl #frankiesbikinis #riverside #thickgirlproblems #thickthighs #bodyglide #witchesofinstagram🔮🌙 https://www.instagram.com/p/CCXHr7SDcZ_/?igshid=1957b1yrglc48

SURRENDER . I didn’t post for the last day of #myfemmeexperience challenge with @shaktisoulcollective because I wasn’t sure what to say about surrender. . I wasn’t sure because I’ve avoided it forever. My whole life I let my anxiety turn me into a control freak. If I could just control every single aspect of my life I could prevent bad things from happening to me and those I love. . The f*cked up part is I’m determined as hell and do a pretty damn good job at this which just further makes me believe this to be true. . But here’s the thing I can’t control everything, I can’t control most things and all I’ve done is allow myself to go 29 years without ever practicing surrender. . What does it look like for me to feel supported? What does it look like for me to feel like the universe has my back? What does it look like for me to surrender to something so much bigger than myself and trust? What if I didn’t need to have all the answers? What if I didn’t need to follow my anxiety’s compulsion to do and control? Im not sure yet! I know it makes my chest feel tight and makes me nervous but I’m also sure that what’s on the other side of it is pure magic. . So right now I’m sitting in the mess of not knowing how to surrender but knowing I need to. And I’m doing my best to be ok with that. Thank you @jessicajeanmuir for everything 🖤 . . 📸 @lumynphotography . . #surrender #surrendertotheflow #surrendering #womxncircle #womenscircle #wildwomanrising #wildwomensisterhood #wildwoman #healing #healingjourney #selfhealingjourney #selflove #healingenergy #healingtrauma #healingtools https://www.instagram.com/p/B9AC1Bfnc3b/?igshid=1awyibbkq51kc

Reconnecting to my intuition . Day 5 of #myfemmeexperience challenge with @shaktisoulcollective . tw: sexual assault . My intuition and I have had a tumultuous relationship. . I was friends with the first boy who assaulted me. I trusted him. . After that I never quite trusted my intuition the same way I felt she had betrayed me. I’ve numbed myself in a variety of ways over the years to stop myself from feeling. . What I didn’t understand was I was dimming my power. I was dimming my connection to myself and to so much more. . I embraced my hard, my strong, my masculine and let my soft, trusting, loving, sensual, divine feminine hide. . 2020, this #womxncircle with @shaktisoulcollective , therapy and @goldenrootacupuncture has helped me begin the process of opening myself back up to my feminine, back up to my intuition, to the part of me that innately knows things, the parts of me I’ve been hiding for too long. I’m finding my balance, my true nature, like Mother Nature herself exemplified in me. . I am so grateful to be on this journey and to be supported by these #womxn as I grow into my truest self. . 📸 magic by @blueflamestudioco . . #sensualselfiechallenge #sacredsensuality #divinefeminine #divinefeminineenergy #wildwomanrising #wildwomansisterhood #wildwoman #trustyourintuition #intuition #connectiontoself #lifecoachforwomen #womenscircle #womenscircles #healing #healingjourney #selfhealingjourney #femme (at Grant-Humphreys Mansion) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8t6PHpHXsR/?igshid=1wh6w5hoj5yig

How can you bring more pleasure into your life? . What if you lotion-ed and massaged your feet today? . What if you sunk your toes into some sand or grass? . What if you put on your favorite song and let your body move freely? . How do you bring more pleasure into your life? . . my favorite photographer: @byronimo . . #pleasurepriestess #pleasures #indulgence #indulgeyourself #womxncircle #divine #divinefeminineenergy #divinemasculine #wildwoman #wildwomansisterhood #wildwomanrising #beachlife🌴 #saltlife #siswimsuit #beachbabe #beachholiday (at Beach @ Cadillac) https://www.instagram.com/p/B8EkgV3H3uY/?igshid=52v54a6o2feb