hi, nhixxie. it's been so long since i saw you (or your blog, to be precise). i've been staying away from tumblr since november, and i've missed it. but i'm not gonna talk about that. you may not remember me, but i'll always remember you. because of Breathe Lightly, you've sparked that little light in me that was fading. i finally found my dream, and i worked so hard for it. and now, i want to thank you. really, no one was able to convince me to pursue my dream--not my parents, not my teachers
not even my close friends. it was you. you and your beautiful way with words. you convinced me. you made me believe in what i can do. and now i just want to thank you. thank you for reliving that fire in me. i'm now a med student at a number one university in my country. i've set my dream to be a cardio-thoracic surgeon. i'll try to apply your words to my steps from now on; to try to breathe just a bit lightly, and hopefully give others the hope to do the same.
Ā Oh my god. I donāt know what to say! Thank you?? Thanks for being inspired to make such an important, life-changing decision and telling my that my writing was the vessel that brought you to it??? Iām so shocked about this rn tbh! Congratulations on getting yourself on the path to achieving your dream!! Iām so proud of you!
I would like to offer you some choice words if you don;t mind! I wrote Breathe Lightly while I was in the thick of nursing school, and now that Iām working as a cardiac surgery nurse, Iāve realized that a lot of what I wrote seem so romanticized and flowery despite my utmost effort of trying to make it as authentic as possible. Maybe itās the shift in perspective that Iāve realized when Iāve actually started caring for these patients. I want you to know that when you start your studies as a med student, and even as you start caring for these people, itās most likely not going to be as emotionally rewarding as Breathe Lightly makes things to be, right off the bat. Itās going to be difficult; sometimes people are difficult, families are difficulty, that is what being a human being faced with illness is. Not everybody who has a failing heart is as self-realized as Castiel is in this story, and I hope I havenāt brought your expectations up falsely.
But there will be one, or two, or three or even more moments in your career, where a patient or two or three or more will thank you for the change youāve brought upon them in their lives. theyāll shake your hand just before they get discharged and thank you sincerely--and it may not be stars in their eyes or gold in their blood but it will be the moments youāll remember the most. these are the trueĀ ābreathe lightly momentsā you will have. i still remember mine so profoundly.
All in all, thank you for messaging me with this! I hope itās okay I publish this as well since I would like to keep this message and read it when I feel like things arenāt going anywhere. Iām so proud of you, and maybe weāll get to work together soon!Ā
