May 20, 2025
Something something autism and things sounded better in my head
Something something schizospec and things sometimes sound worse in my head, but almost always sound even worse outside my head?
Much love to all neurodivergents out there who feel wrong out there for daring to be yourself
#autistic self-awareness#schizospec problems#SchizAuSpec#been havin rambling attacks online today#autistic#autism#autism awareness#actually autistic#just realized the last sentence maybe doesn't even make sense#actually schizospec#comorbid conditions#comorbidities#schizospec comorbidities#it's hard typing out all my big-ass words#of which i always seem to be inflicting the task of expressing outwardly on my fingers#it's so dang hard typing out all the big-ass finnicky words my brain always seems to be relentlessly tasking my woefully inadequate fingers#with expressing#a heavy cross to carry for (hopefully) enacting greater good; helping get some actually frickin truly progressive thinking going out there#here's hoping my “way with words” which often to me feels more like a hindrance honestly cos I can't access support#will one day finally lead to some better understanding of our struggles#and you know while i speak too many words; i find the writing of those on the other end of things - poverty of speech i think they call it#(clinically at least)#anyways - those of y'all who experience difficulties with making full sentences#i can understand y'all a lot better than I can most neurotypicals lol#and- not to get all gushy- but i think you're awesome and i will always be an ally to those at different levels of speech ability/capacity#than me; and more broadly those with different experiences of schizospec than me#i do not really wish to speak over anyone - ideally i would like a harmony of all our varied voices fighting to be heard/for change together#sorry to get sappy on main and I'm sorry if it was too many words but it is one of those kinds of days w the disorganized symptoms#still in recovery from Sunday I think (it's Tuesday now • nearly noon)#neurodivergent
