#willfully

So I'm mostly rambling but I got scolded by my doctor again today for coming in sick only now when I've been sick for 2 weeks lol. And how GODDAMMIT IT'S BAD TO GO TO WORK SICK. And I realized that I only "gave up" and went to the doctor when a colleague suggested that I do.

And I realized that it's always like that lmao.

But not just for me. For pretty much all of us.

So my amused-in-a-bitter-way thought was. "Selection bias again: People who choose a career on the ambulance have NO self-preservation and rely on each other to tell them to take care of their health, physical and mental."

And I remembered this one guy who told me he had a heart attack once and could NOT for the love of god be convinced he needed help until his team physically dragged him to the chest pain unit and raised hell (and the nurses raised hell, too, lol).

And then I remembered all the other times we would go at each other like, "What would you tell a PATIENT in your situation??" - "I would tell them they need help." - "So what does that SAY about your situation???" - "That I need to push harder. :D"

So the bleak observation is... I don't think EMTs/paramedics in general value themselves enough and somehow the career of "I want to help people, but in the most unglamorous, under-appreciated, physically tasking and also SELF-ENDANGERING way :DD" draws us all in lol.

Absolutely. Publicity stunts play into loyalties/existing feelings so if you're examining it from an objective/storytelling standpoint it becomes a lot easier to call bullshit.

Though I AM in the supernatural fandom to some degree! Like I have a SPN side blog and I definitely fall into the "casual fan hooked back in with popcorn" category. I will say my involvement is more that of a fandom anthropologist than an actual member of the fandom, (though I did write fic recently!) I think "fan of the show" feels different than "cast Stan" though. Like you can be into a show and know close to nothing about the actors and not be invested in them at all, which provides some objectivity as well.

willfully