#whump ref

(in my experience, bc this was the first thing i wrote after waking up from surgery a couple hours ago)

since you can’t eat beforehand, I went in pretty grumpy-hungry but believe me, nervousness takes care of that QUICK and i completely forgot

if you have good staff, they notice when you‘re nervous & chat calmly without overwhelming you

anesthesiologists and other staff members repeatedly ask what surgery you are getting done to make sure you were properly informed and to avoid mixups; made me nervous (bc why did no one know what surgery they were doing with me??) until my anesthesiologist explained that they just have to hear me say the words

during prep, different people will be doing different things and giving instructions on what to do (make a fist, put your arm there, etc.), sometimes overlapping (adhd hell)

the face mask was placed over my mouth and nose with just normal breathing air for like 3 minutes while they were still prepping (i assume to get me used to the sensation?)

once the drugs started coming, my very very first instinct was „oh, i‘m gonna throw up“

i didn‘t throw up but then everything went hazy and blurred, kinda like being REALLY tired-drunk

one of the anesthesiologists was standing behind me and caressing my face while talking to me and promising to take care of me when she noticed i was getting freaked out; the other one was administering the drugs

letting the guy in my basement up for some fresh air <3

(more pics under the cut)

Note: I don’t have any experience with this personally (though I do have a degree in psychology, which is still such a wild thing to say tbh) this is just research that I’ve done into the topic. I’ve tried to get everything correct so as to not offend anyone, and as always, not everyone’s experience will be the same, so this is just a general information starting point. 

Symptoms: 

Insomnia Decreased concentration Loss of interest Irritability Depression Memory problems Nightmares Flashbacks Hypervigilance Mistrust Panic attacks Self-destructive behavior Loss of sense of “who I am” Outbursts of anger Withdrawing from people Difficulty connecting with people Fatigue Lethargy Mood fluctuations / mood swings

Feelings:

Hopelessness Numbness Shame Worthlessness Intense fear of loss and abandonment Suspicious & untrusting Demotivated & drained of energy Judgmental of self and others Emotionally cut off Scattered and distracted Self-sabotaging Negative & pessimistic Self-critical Feeling on guard all the time Empty 

Thoughts: 

“No one can be trusted” “Everyone will hurt you” “Everyone cheats or is dishonest” “Sharing your feelings will result in losing people” Belief that you are not safe and will never be safe

emotions associated with trauma:

shame anxiety depression suspicion unease desperation overwhelm

Thanks for the questions! These are great.

So if a person wakes up in an ambulance, the first things we do and say are according to the AVPU scale, which is a way to assess consciousness. We ask the same normal questions, “What's your name, do you remember what happened, what year is it, who is the president.”  Usually, the first things we say right when they wake up are along the lines of “Hey buddy, calm down, just breathe, etc” If they have something in their mouth or on the face they will struggle and try to pull it out so we often have to lightly grab arms and we will tell them what it is so they can calm down a bit. We aren't allowed to explain what happened at first because we want to see if they remember. Same with telling them their name, If they don’t, we do explain it. Then we ask the questions again about every 5 minutes or so to see if the memory has stuck. The one thing that we are NOT AT ALL allowed to say is things like “You are gonna be ok” or “Everythings gonna be alright” because that isn't true and gives false hope. If someone asks “ Am I going to be ok?” or something of the sort we always say “ We will do the best we can for you” 

these were saved in my bookmarks so idk which account they were made by, feel free to add on to this post if they are yours or you know of any more

fantasy generator

random generator

random generator 2

torture generator

this is really more for my own personal reference since I need to write everything down because my brain is made of smashed banana and cannot remember anything ever. 🍌

species / role:

mortal whumpee, the average human being

immortal whumpee

vampire whumpee

demon whumpee

angel whumpee

phoenix whumpee

elf whumpee

faery whumpee

tiny whumpee

giant whumpee

android whumpee

cyborg whumpee

robot whumpee

draconic whumpee

mer whumpee

dryad / plant-person whumpee

mage whumpee

royal whumpee

bodyguard whumpee

knight whumpee

naga whumpee

werewolf whumpee

dhampir whumpee

genie / djinn whumpee

ghost whumpee

zombie whumpee

undead whumpee

selkie whumpee

pet / box boy whumpee

guard dog whumpee

living weapon whumpee

assassin whumpee

spy whumpee

rebel whumpee

deity whumpee

slave whumpee

mafia boss whumpee

CEO whumpee

whumper-turned-whumpee

caretaker-turned-whumpee

villain whumpee

superhero whumpee

sidekick whumpee

civilian whumpee

famous whumpee

known whumpee

returner / regressor whumpee

monster hunter whumpee

behavior:

defiant whumpee

stoic whumpee

weak whumpee

cowardly whumpee

pathetic whumpee

obedient whumpee

prideful whumpee

detached whumpee

enduring whumpee

feral whumpee

vicious whumpee

powerful whumpee

bargaining whumpee

disbelieving whumpee

hopeful whumpee

hopeless whumpee

self-loathing whumpee

regretful whumpee

conditioned whumpee

connected to this post, but now with more info

Note: I don’t have any experience with this personally (though I do have a degree in psychology, which is still such a wild thing to say tbh) this is just research that I’ve done into the topic. I’ve tried to get everything correct so as to not offend anyone, and as always, not everyone’s experience will be the same, so this is just a general information starting point. 

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Here's a list of actions and responses to certain emotions associated with trauma, to be used as a reference when writing.

under the cut cuz its v long

doing something a little different. More pics under the cut, cw for Gore (as the rest are not in b&w)