#who knows...?

˗ˏˋ꒰ 💭 ꒱ . . . the winner option in the poll i did, using @rae-reblogs , was to post the drabbles with the character i had in mind (in a specific-character way). so, here y'all have the second one (and last one for now).

˗ˏˋ꒰ 💭 ꒱ . . . lowercase intended, 325 words, wrote in the second form for mc, very ooc raphael.

even after so much time with you, raphael couldn't help but wonder how you ended up falling into the sweet branches of love, how it was that someone like you fell for someone like him.

curious forms of destiny, a sarcastic destiny that wanted to see you two together.

First I have to find out who shall be my first victim- I mean seller...

*maniacal cackling*

So I was pondering CatholicCupcake’s question on how to take the words “Be not afraid” when one struggles with anxiety and here’s what I found today!

It’s a question I still have trouble with from time to time. So much emphasis is put on trust in God and it's even implied that if you trust enough or trust the right way, you won't BE afraid. But that's not quite true. It's more like God is telling us that there is no REASON to be afraid. He TOTALLY gets it if we are. Heck, He was so scared He sweat blood (a real thing that can happen if humans get too incredibly unbelievably stressed!) So I try to remember that He knows what anxiety and panic attacks feel like. It was probably something beyond my worst panic attacks that He experienced in that garden, but even then, He trusted God (the Father) to know what was best, even if He was scared. If Jesus, who has the closest, most perfect relationship with God EVER can still be more scared than I have ever been, then the message in the words “Be not afraid” is different from what we think it is.

Then I did me a research and looked up the root word for “fear” and its definition in the Hebrew language and here it is:

“The root meaning of the word yara is "to flow" and is related to words meaning rain or stream as a flowing of water. In Hebrew thought fear can be what is felt when in danger or what is felt when in the presence of an awesome sight or person of great authority. These feelings flow out of the person through their actions, such as shaking when in fear or bowing down in awe of one in authority.” (source: http://www.ancient-hebrew.org/vocabulary_definitions_fear.html )

So in the context of scripture, when the angels come to the shepherds and say “Be not afraid”, this is in response to the shepherd’s panicked ACTIONS. Their bowing in awe or shaking in fear. A better translation for us in modern America and in the context of anxiety would probably be “Don’t let your fear take control of you. Don’t let it control your actions or decisions.”

Hey, you guys! I know it’s been, like, ever, but I am back with Chapter 17 of IASWASB! The chapter should be up by later this evening or tomorrow by the latest (taking seventeen credits is quickly becoming a thorn in my side). Mika and Yuu are finally going on their first date, but they run into some...complications. And will they finally kiss...?! You’ll have to read the chapter in order to find out. But for now, here’s the preview for the chapter:

Mika skidded around the corner, making a mad dash down the sidewalk as he glanced down at his watch. "Shit...it's 12:26! I hope Yuu's not waiting on me...that would look so bad..." he thought to himself. He looked up from his watch, seeing the aquarium come into view. "Ah! There's the aquarium!" he thought to himself. He got closer and closer to the aquarium as he saw Yuu on a bench by some potted flowers, scrolling through his phone. "Yuu-chan!" he called out. Yuu looked up from his phone and smiled. "Ah, Mika!" he called out. As he began to make his way over to him, he couldn't help but take in Yuu's attire, which consisted of a black and white plaid flannel button up shirt that had a ruffle on one side of the shirt, a cream colored wool and cashmere cardigan over the shirt, black skinny jeans that had some tears in the knee sections, and black velvet combat lace-up boots. Yuu just looked so stunning that it nearly blew Mika's breath away. "Damn, he looks beautiful." he then looked at his attire, which consisted of a white shirt, a baby blue and white plaid button down shirt over it, faded jeans, and black Vans. For some reason, he felt very under dressed for this date of theirs. "I feel like I should've put more effort into my outfit." he thought to himself. "Did I keep you waiting too long?" Mika asked as he approached Yuu. "No, I just got here." Yuu said. They both stood there in an awkward silence, not sure of what to say. Yuu got ready to open his mouth as a voice reached their ears. "Heh...I didn't know you had invited Mika..." Mika jolted, noticing that they weren't alone. He looked over Yuu's shoulder to see Shinoa and the others. He arched a brow in confusion. "What the hell? I thought it was just going to be the two of us." he thought to himself. "Oh, Mika's here, too?" Mitsuba asked. "Yuu, how come you didn't say anything about this?" Kimizuki asked. "Yeah, how come you didn't tell me that this was actually going to be a group date rather than a normal date between two people?" Mika wanted to voice his question, but he kept it to himself as Yuu laughed nervously. "I totally forgot to say something. Sorry about that." he said. Mika narrowed his eyes at him. "Like hell he forgot. He probably didn't mention me on purpose. And he most definitely didn't mention Shinoa and the others to me on purpose, as well." he thought to himself.