A lot has happened over these past few days and I'm actually doing tons better mental and physical health wise as of now /genuine
I even got a new job and made some new friends and I've been learning how to manage my symptoms!! I'm... Actually genuinely really happy and in a good place right now...
I do want to catch up and draw when I get the chance and I have a lot to do!!
Alsoooo... I've been rewatching the original Avatar The Last Airbender animated show and that kind of inspired me to make yet another alternate universe for me and my husbands (I'd be a waterbender, Wamuu is an airbender, and maybe Vanilla and Bel could be non-benders who used to live in the fire nation? Or since there's 4 of us, maybe we could be all 4 elements? Vanilla could be a firebender and Bel could be an earthbender! I think that might be fun π)
Also, I want to apologize again because it might be a little while before I answer asks and reblog art and stuff
Alrighty, I'm headed to work now, I hope you all have a wonderful day ππ
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I am missing a space where I can just sort of ramble about how my day went or what I've been dreaming lately and can go on at length and if people want to interact with the post they can do so or not. I can't do that on Twitter, the format's not long enough. I can kind of do that here on Tumblr, but the interaction of choice here is still liking/reblogging rather than commenting, and it's not a great place to have a conversation.
(Last night I dreamed there was this liquid and if you let your hands or feet touch it, you would grow new fingers or toes. It was quite grody and the new fingers or toes would come right off if you applied a little pressure, ewww.)
I know I could go to Dreamwidth, but I have no friends on Dreamwidth and have no idea how to make them. And I don't even know if people are actively using Dreamwidth at all or if it's just a forum for hosting kink memes and archiving old LJ posts now.
For now, I guess I'll use Tumblr, but I don't expect much interaction because that's not what this site is about.
(I have to figure out something to DO tomorrow that will get me interested enough to get out of bed. I cannot play Word Cookies and browse Tumblr all day like I did today. I have friend!fic to read, but there's an element of that that always feels like obligation no matter how good the fic is, so I always drag my feet on it.)
Sorry for the ramble, but this is totally what I'd put on LJ if I could.
Aaaaaugh!! I would make a selfship promo but I will admit, I'm still pretty nervous about making new mutuals π maybe next time
And while irl, I have somehow managed to become 90% less socially anxious and even more outgoing and friendly... Online is a bit different and I don't know why
When I go outside, I can happily talk to others face to face and even brighten their day, order meals and drinks, thank them, apologize, ask for things, etc... and I'm really proud of myself!
Maybe soon the same will be said for making more mutuals in the selfship community one day!! I wish you all luck and make new friendships your way! π§ββοΈβ¨
Here's a little rundown of what's been going on and what's to come:
π I'm currently fully pursuing my dream as a comic book artist and animator (I am very tired and nervous but excited for stuff in the future)
π I'm preparing to go to university to get my bachelor's degree in animation and will be living in a dorm for the first time in my life!
π I've been working on the pilot for my original comic and I'm a little burnt out so I've been taking small breaks
π I'm planning on getting an internship next summer for animation
π I'm anxious all the time but I'm excited nonetheless
π During my breaks, I'll do selfship stuff again and I'll answer asks as well (I definitely don't want to miss my selfship anniversaries!! I'll be in school during those times! So I'll be drawing in my dorm)
π It'll be a little while before things even out and I find a good routine to manage work, school, personal art, and socialization!
π Oh! And I'm planning on meeting the voice actor of Wamuu in December with some my friends! I want to have him say something so I could animate it for a project!!
π Also I will be reopening commissions soon, I'll let everyone know when!
I'm seeing some confused head shakes... Okay so... Let me explain:
It's a completely alternate alternate alternate universe very separate from the original Sapphire Heartverse. Basically, it's a way for me to express my feelings for Kars without ruining the SHV canon. (For non-Jojo folks: I can't date Wamuu and Kars and Esidisi at the same time in the same universe, because Wamuu is their son)
Irradiated Heart (or long ass title) cover (which I would actually like to redraw because I personally don't like the way it looks, but you get the idea): here
EDIT: Updated Irradiated Heart cover: here!!!
Irradiated Heart (somewhat outdated) summary: here
Irradiated Heart ship art (PixieKars): here
EDIT: Irradiated Heart fanfic: here
And for fun? A little bit of some merman-verse hehehe!: here
More thoughts under the cut
OKAY SO.
I've been actually writing a lot in my personal fanfic for Irradiated Heart. I feel like the dialogue and writing is just so good and I might actually want to share it with you all one day. It's not finished yet and I'm not sure if it will even really have an ending...
It started off as a non-serious, mainly joke alternate universe just for the sole purpose of me being able to kiss Kars and get my affections out for him. However... Things quickly took a very angsty and intense turn. It's so strange how something that starts off as a joke or silly, can turn into something more serious and deep.
So... If I ever do decide to share the Irradiated Heart fanfic with you all, I'll probably have to omit some headcanons of mine that will very much anger others.
(They're nothing super bad, just might make folks' skin crawl with annoyance... ((And to preface this: I know in canon that it says Kars killed both of his parents, but this is also an alternate universe.)) For instance, I have a private headcanon that Kars is half human- his mother was a pillarwoman and his father was a human she fell in love with. His father cheated on his mother or something, his mother started to resent Kars's existence, and the other pillarfolk would just avoid Kars which caused him to become asocial. Kars became a scientist and spent most of his days just trying to find ways to be better and possibly even get accepted by his society. One day he meets a man crying really hard by an underground lake. Kars has never seen this before, and decided to go talk to him and ask what's wrong. He says that sometimes when he gets overwhelmed he just cries, then feels better. That's when the relationship between Kars and Esidisi started to blossom. Both outcasts, they found comfort in each other.)
There's a few more headcanons similar to that, which makes Kars more "human", both in a literal and figurative sense, and I understand and acknowledge that would make a lot of people very upset. However, this is fiction and it started off as just a silly thing to begin with! Plus people ignore canon, have fun with characters, and basically play with them like toys!
But anyway... Some of the dialogue and scenes in there are, in my personal opinion, really really good and I kind of... Want to show folks? I'll have to go back and edit some things though, especially the anger inducing headcanons π
I might do a poll or I might work up some courage to ask a friend if they wanna read some of my work (once I finish editing it), and you are more than welcome to say no and decline! I won't push anyone to read anything!
But yeah, I've been thinking about Kars a lot again... Oof...
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Also!! Mutuals! This is a good time for you folks to self reblog some of your art works so I can put them into my drafts and reblog them for later! πβ¨
I genuinely hope everyone is doing alright. I will admit, I feel very lonely and isolated due to dealing with mental health and physical health issues. It can cause me to basically shut down. I have a feeling a lot of others can feel the same way.
I've been spending a lot of time outside and that's been helping me out and relax a bit. I really enjoy going outside every morning before I have to go on with the day, especially seeing all the wildlife and the plants.
I also wouldn't mind if someone maybe checked up on me or sent me a quick message or ask asking if I'm alright or or something. Nobody has to, and there is absolutely no pressure, but I just figured I'd ask anyway.
I hope I'm able to come back very soon and draw and have fun again. I hope you all have a wonderful day π«ππ
