#wellllpppp

W A I T I N G...

send me a tv series or movie!

Nah | haven’t seen yet | didn’t like/gave up | like it | love it | highly recommend.

fell on face immediately

this bodes well

Jealousy: Often times, Nevan does become jealous for her masters attention. Not that she's an attention hog, in fact she just wishes to be something more then a trophy on a shelf to her master. She wishes to be used every so often an have fun with the person she gave her power to, and who defeated her fair and square. -- Seeing another arm being used instead of her, out of the many others, is rather disheartening and creates a certain envy towards that weapon in use. -- But then again, who wouldn't be wanting of attention in such a situation?

Loyalty: No matter to which master; Dante, Sparda, Vergil, Nevan has a great amount of loyalty to them. She will always hold high respect for the three and if told to do something, drastic or not, she would oblige graciously. But not with out a witty retort. 

Protecting the Temin-Ne-Gru: This job wasn't forced, it was asked of her. Sparda has his trust in Nevan even if she was a devious and dark succubi. When asked this job, seeing her masters happiness in jeopardy, she gladly accepted. Even though she knew that it meant she'd be sealed away in a dark room for years to come; being away from many she knew, Nevan had accepted it for her masters sake; not just because she had a duty to him, because she wished to.

Sparda: To Nevan, Sparda is a drug. Before the time of Sparda coming to the human realm, Nevan and he had their small flings about like demonic beings did. It wasn't unnatural for a arms to be with a master; it was often done, and encouraged giving demonic nature.  -- In the end of all of this, Nevan became highly attached to Sparda, but they never marked another; she wished to have waited for her master to do such then she herself. But that had never happened for he didn't think her a suitable mate like such; or how she took it.  She wasn't heart broken when he found a mate, it did hurt, but she was happy for him. Hell, she encouraged it. Seeing her master happy was her deepest wish after all. ( Despite her disdain on it being a human he took. ) And such wish for his happiness to stay, she gladly took her place protecting it by guarding the seal to hell.  This attachment never really died, and sense it hadn't after all those years, she was able to recognize the twin sons of Sparda. Their white hair, blue eyes, dark power, it all reminded her of the Dark knight she knew. -- But then that led to her own fascination of the two.

Human form: Nevan doesn't particularly like it, but she does have a human form. Like many of the devil arms, she is able to transform into what is deemed a human starter. Pale skin, normal eyes, no claws, tails, fangs, ex. -- But she doesn't like to show it all that much.... On a rare few times, she will shift to it for her master when he wishes to take her somewhere, or what not. During that, there are only a few changes. Hair becomes slightly longer, skin becomes a pale milky color, ad nails not as long. Hues of her eyes shift into a soft ocean blue. -- Everything else stays the same, unless she goes for the teen approach, but that's a different story.

Bubble: Personal space is something the succubi loves. If one simply steps out of their bounds, into her line of space, she becomes spiteful, angered, and all the more irritated. There is nothing more that she despises then others whom she takes dislike, or has not known yet, come into her area. She will show it as well. The playfulness of her actions and words turn dark, warning, and malevolent.But like said, this all depends whom you are. If you are her master, lover, or one she takes interest in, she will most likely be the bubble buster.

Yesterday, I helped my best friend hang Christmas lights in her boyfriends/her room.

It made me miss being in the Christmas spirit. 

Then it made me feel very alone, but that just comes in waves.

Sometime after that I got a message saying "Let's get baked and watch Clueless" and aww'd internally.

It's just nice when people remember slightly insignificant things you say.

That didn't happen though because sometimes you give someone your number and just have to wait it out.

I'm not mad about it. I've played the waiting game for years.

I don't think I've ever let myself get that vulnerable, or let the metaphorical ball be in someone else's court.

You never know unless you try though and I'm hoping I'm not setting myself up for a series of dick moves. 

Dick moves are bad moves.