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Yesterday was my first day back in the gym since getting injured in January.

Slowly getting back into it.

Squat Day:

✨️Hip Thrusts: 2 sets, 30 lbs, 20 reps

✨️ Squats: 3 sets, 30 lbs, 6 reps || 4 sets, 45lbs 6 reps

I’ve gained nearly 60 pounds since quitting hard drugs… dealing with heavy feelings and some messy wreckage from my using. The joys of recovery.

I put down the pipe and picked up a fork, clearly.

I’m trying not to beat myself up. The last time I weighed this much I was pregnant with my second daughter, so there’s that…

Today’s bicycle ride was pretty routine, to the bank and back. But I got in a couple extra miles the best way possuble.

After too damn log -- months, literally -- I finally made my way back to the gym!

I had planned this for Monday, but some excuse - OOPS, I meant reason - came up and I missed it. Today I was resolved nothing was gonna stop me. I finished getting change for the office and then biked over to the YMCA. Stran ge though it may seem, I had kept my membership up all those months I was absent, so I keyed in my member number and went to the weight room.

Serves me right for being absent so long. They bought a lot of new equipment and rearrange ti location of the ones I usually use. I found most of them and was able to get in a good weight training session while I was there. One thing I was surprised about: I was able to use most of the machines at only slightly less weight than I was setting them at the last time I was there.

Highest Weight: 242.1

I’ve been gone a while and have faltered in my fitness goals, but I’m happy to say that I am back on track and seeing success.

I have lost 10% of my body weight so far, and I feel like I have put on some muscle with all my exercise the last few months. I’m feeling... tougher. I can run now and not feel like I’m dying. My legs feel stronger. I feel good!

Starting weight: 140

A week ago I started a no-snacking challenge to see how I would do. What’s wrong with snacking, you might ask? Well for one I do way too damn much of it. Snacking between meals is a pitfall of mine because I eat out of boredom when I’m not actually hungry which has led to me not being able to buckle my jeans, and has led to me hate the way I look and how all my clothes fit. 

I did pretty dang well on my no-snack challenge. I’m a few pounds down and fitting info my jeans slightly better (slightly, lol).

If I did have something to eat I really asked myself if I was HUNGRY. If I was, I would have a reasonable portion of something.

I was maybe 80% successful because I did catch myself munching on things a few times when I didn’t really need to. 

Let’s face it - people who are “naturally thin” aren’t any different body or metabolism-wise than people who are overweight or obese. They’re not magical, their bodies are not special, their metabolisms are not super-powered.

What IS different is their habits.

“Naturally” Thin people don’t consistently overeat. “Naturally” thin people don’t eat when they’re not hungry.

They’re not plate-finishers, feeling the need to eat everything in front of them. They usually have food left on their plates

They eat slower and more deliberately

They eat junk food too, but not as much.

They rarely go for seconds

They’re not special, and they don’t have magical metabolisms. They’re not better than the overweight people. They just have different habits and different relationships with food. They make food choices that give them a lower caloric intake at the end of the day.

I acknowledge that the only reason why I’m fatter than everyone else is because my eating habits are different. I’m a plate finisher, I eat when I’m not hungry, and at the end of the day or week I have eaten proportionally more calories.