Journey To A Better Me

Haven't been active in years. If anyone comes to my page wondering about me. Married June 2022.

It's coming off slowly. I've been on track with my structure and plan 98% of the time. My biggest thing is my creamer in the morning but I've cut down to 1/4 cup now. Trying to stick to this program and follow it and do the best I can before Thanksgiving, almost 6 more weeks away. I think I feel a bit better, other than fighting with the food cravings and food addiction in my mind. And though I'm still fairly fatigued and worn down I feel that it is improved from where I started. I'm trying to be patient but I really just want to get out of the 200s. But that will be a while. I got to my first mini goal of 235, so this is the lightest I've been in all 2020. So that's something. Next mini goal is 222, 11 more lbs to go on the front. Hopefully before Thanksgiving.

About three weeks progress. Sticking to program. Having mental struggles with cravings but overal resisting and sticking to my why. I not happy at this weight and so uncomfortable still. Hopefully in another 10 lbs I will start to feel better in my skin and less frustrated at myself and life. First mini goal is at 235 which is the lightest I will have been in all 2020. So getting close to that. Trying not to think about having to redo all this weight. Trying to wipe the slate clean and just remind myself I lost all this weight before, I know I can do it again.

Only 65lbs to go...

Weight loss over the last two weeks. I had several days of slip ups the previous week so didn't want to make a official post and this number seems more accurate of my progress. I met my first mini goal of 242, which was the weight I started at back in 2017 when I first made this blog. Next mini goal I think will be 230, so 10.2 lbs to go. This weekend me and the boyfriend are celebrating 1 year together so went out for breakfast and will go out to dinner. Trying to have a semi active day though. I'm really happy of the progress I've made so far number wise. I don't feel much different though. Still feel uncomfortably fat and my clothing is still tight. I hope by the next mini goal and next month I start to feel better in my skin.

Good week with good progress. Feel like I was due for a good week when last week was shy of what work I had put in. I can't be upset about basically 13lbs gone in May. I know the numbers are still very high from where I need to be and a long road ahead. But trying to not get overwhelmed at how far I need to go. I got 2.8 lbs till I meet my first mini goal. I could have that completed by next week if I stay on track and focused.

Not that much progress made this week. I had a few minor slip ups by overal was on track. I feel like I should have lost more due to my recorded intake and output numbers. But maybe it'll show up more by next week. Trying to keep my goals in focus but already struggling with motivation. All my silly cravings are coming out with all my thought distortions. 6.6 lbs till I make my first mini goal. Which feels like it'll take forever if things have really slowed to this pace. Just trying to keep going and focused.

Moving in the right direction. Still uncomfortably big though. Nice to be out of the 250s, even if it is just barley. I decided my first goal would be to 242, my old highest weight, which was when I first started on here and started my weight loss journey. I can't believe the damage I did to myself in a year, but their is only forward now. I have to fix it. 7.8 lbs to go till my first mini goal. Hopefully get there in 2-3 weeks. Then I'll decided my 2nd mini goal is at that point.