#weight progress

I am so happy to see Zombies Run back to how it used to be. I swear, I can hear it in the voice acting; the joy at getting back to what made the app awesome in the first place. It is a happy accident that things are more routine after my son’s surgery, and I can start running again. It feels great to be moving, even if I’m sore. The medical bills and rising cost of… Everything has me getting…

SW: 202.4 lbs

CW: 182.0 lbs

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I I didn’t starve myself or restrict just ate around 1200 calories a day and if I craved something I had it in small quantities. Took me 54 days.

first heavy lift session of winter break. for once iron path didn’t do me dirty! super helpful for tracking my bar paths and checking my form and i didn’t even cry about it this time 😊😅 though i’m not sure if the app itself was helpful or just having videos was the helpful part 🤷🏻‍♀️

Okay, I am putting my weight and stats out there. Here we go:

8/10/18 -  Height: 4 ft. 10 inches Weight: 134 lbs

Flexibility level on a scale of 1 to 10: 3 Y’all. Its bad. I can’t touch my toes anymore. 

How am I mental, starting out on this journey? I’m humiliated. Embarrassed. Ashamed. I feel disconnected to my sexual and confident self. I feel a lack of self care in myself. I don’t feel the need to put time into myself, like taking a soothing bath or fixing my hair and make up before work. When the opportunity arises to do something physical, like a walk with the family, I create reasons as to why I don’t want to or can’t. 

BUT, that is all going to change.  I made myself workout today. I got on the floor and did 35 minutes of Pilates. It took all of 2 seconds into that 35 minutes to realize I was no longer good at Pilates. I no longer had my flexibility I once had, even five years ago. But, it was day ONE. I will pat myself on the back for doing it and then going for a 15 minute walk with my dog Maggie afterwards.