#wantherback

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Where is my little purritio? 😭 #lostcat #cherokeecounty #wantherback (at Cherokee County)

I need this soooo bad I can taste it... #missmygirl #wantherback

I never regret. I never seek to regret. I overthink but I never regret. Everything happens for a reason but are the reasons just made up all in my head or are they real? Did I imagine our first kiss? was the butterflies in my stomach my brain playing tricks on me? Were those 8 months all in my head? And what I am feeling at the moment, the stress the anxiety the pain the wanting to be alone the seeing a pretty girl but only seeing your face the thought of another human being touching you like me all me being selfish or am I really in love with a ghost. I never regret. I never regret. But time. Time. I wanted…no…I needed more time. I wanted to go to a museum and ask you what your thoughts were of the obscenity in front of you and ask you what you see what you feel ask you to help me feel it too I wanted to go somewhere quiet and stare at the stars and tell you that I hope when we die we become one and I hope we end up in the same Galaxy on the same horizon on the same galactic mesh. I wanted to do something super odd and quirky like borrow 20 puppies and have them spell out the words or your name followed by the question many men fear to ask “will you marry me?” Me? This soul who stumbled upon this beautiful amateur princess who brought light to a dark yet sensual situation. Made life what it never had been for the girl created from abused verbal alcoholism and addiction bred in her bones. [Don’t start to regret now you’re almost there] she finally found herself when she found you. The world was what is should of been. Flowers smelled good to her. She always hated the smell of flowers. She made love for the first time in her life. No just two bodies aimlessly seeking pleasure. It was a connection. The skin to skin. The eye contact the sounds of her moans waking her senses in a way that couldn’t be recognized by an ordinary individual. The taste of her flower healed all wounds nectar that she wanted to keep forever. Waking up was more than a blessing it was an accomplishment. Seeing you name on her phone every morning was one of he greatest gifts because that was when she started living. Her reflection became clear. She saw herself as she should of a long time ago. No regrets. Then… […no not yet] Then…it was over. She was gone. That girl. She was gone. The flowers died. She woke up. The mirror shattered. The starts stopped being so bright. She was gone. I was. I am. I will be broken. Shards in my everyday existence. She knows her worth but when she sees herself something is missing now that can’t be replaced by another soul. Life is different. She’s 25 pounds lighter. And her brain is 100mph faster. She gone. And I did it. She did it. It happened. It was a dream. It wasn’t… I need her. She doesn’t define me but she defines what I longed for. What I had been searching for for so long. And she’s…gone. She doesn’t feel the same way. The pain is worst than addiction it’s quiet hurt. Who do I run to. There’s no one to talk to I’m lost. Lost without an end game. A plan. Quiet cries. Quiet…don’t show the world pain. How do I not regret. How do I learn to process. “One day at a time” Time… I remembered I never regret. I loved. I loved. I don’t want it anymore. It’s a curse. I love her. I always will. I never regret.

Chắc là, ai cũng có khoảng thời gian như thế. Đó là cái khoảng thời gian mà luôn thấy mình ôm mình nằm khóc trong đêm, khi mà nguồn sức lực đã dốc cạn ở ban ngày, và nỗi cô đơn thì được thể xâm chiếm tâm can. #ilustrations #missmygirl #wantherback #evesquotes #evesstuff #vietquotes #myquotes #biglonelyworld

My god it hurts.