#wandee

It's just episode 2 and I'm in love with how this show does intimacy of any sort, let alone sex. I get why we're all losing it over how wandee is okay with the necklace thing but not with kissing, but that's the perfect example. First we see Wandee make it extremely clear that kissing is out of bounds because it carries a certain emotional significance for him. The fact that he calls it silly but still enforces it strongly is an excellent way to put across that yes, he doesn’t think kissing is always carried romantic connotations and such, but it is special for him. He isn't assuming that Yoryak's desire to kiss him is a sign of romantic feelings either (and imo neither is yoryak at this point). They're not using a rulebook or scale of what various sorts of intimacy mean, they're assuming nothing and communicating what they want and do not want at each step. And when Yoryak puts the necklace on him and kisses that instead, it's a new thing for them. For Yoryak, it scratches the itch of wanting to kiss him. It doesn't have the emotional weight in Wandee's mind that a kiss has, and maybe that allows him to explore this brand new relationship, test its shape and its boundaries in ways less burdened with expectations for him. There's time yet before their own newfound intimacies take on a new meaning as their feelings for each other change, and I can't wait to see how well they communicate about that.

dee be driving nearly 4 hours at midnight (2 there and 2 back) just to see his fake boyfriend after only 3 days not seeing each other. yet refused to admit they missed each other. peak clown behavior if you ask me

So now that we know that they're going to go that route for doctor ter I wonder in his talk with dee if he's going to bring up the date and how he rejected him. It seems with ter he's not out with his sexuality and or hasn't been comfortable with himself knowing he likes men. Hes very concerned as to what others will think of him, if they will take him seriously his image as a doctor is very important to him. He doesn't want him being gay to be his personality the only thing ppl will make of him. And so he sees dee who is open about his sexuality and I he may admire how dee is. His confidence to even confess to him cause that's a risk in of itself. But I think he also has a lot of self hate and uncomfortableness with it as well and he kinda puts that onto others especially Dee with his concern of him and his relationship with yak. I would assume this is his first time having feelings for a man. And or he always knew who he was but was too scared to fully lean and embrace who is is. which is not shocking that's a real genuine concern, and if he explains to dee I think he would understand him definitely. And also ter has been very vocal in his mind about what he thinks of Dee and his feelings for him that must be so overwhelming to the point where he can't even enjoy the dinner with the female colleague whom he brought to that specific restaurant! The same where Dee took him to confess his feelings. It's like As if he's trying to see if he can still feel something for her but he can't. He can tell she's not filling in that void that he has since Dee has been keeping his distance from him. and he obviously can tell she is interested in him. Also last week when he takes the food she got for him, he's all the while also thinking of the time Dee has made the same gesture to him regularly. I just wonder how much he will tell Dee to have him understand him and see him better. Cause he's been so not great at all to Dee, he's being unconsciously or consciously manipulative to him. Due to his own unsettling feelings of who he is. And so it makes the things he says sound really not great at all. Dee right now rightfully can't take his words genuinely not after he showed himself to use Dee's feelings he has for him to his own advantage. So I wonder how much they will dive into this!!