04 . a kiss to apologize .
OH, THE THINGS I DO FOR LOVE. i’m talking about the literal sense of the word and LOVE, as in, @vermillionbook standing before me. there had been a time when the two had been beautifully intertwined. love and love, one in the same. the disconnect occurred when i came to the clear cut conclusion ----- LOVE IS INSANE! a murderer, a danger to herself and everyone around her. reckless, impulsive, a grocery list of other things i won’t bore you with, marienne, because you get my gist.
i was wrong about her just like i was wrong about beck and candice, but at least those two never got blood on their hands. they never killed an innocent girl in a box and left me to clean up the mess that was ellie who i now send books stolen from your library ( a minor issue for us, i’m sure you’d be understanding if you knew the situation. wouldn’t you do anything for your daughter? ) and they certainly never made me bury the corpse of a realtor they thought i was fucking only to unbury and cement in a different location because they didn’t check her GODDAMN FINGER.
no, they were sane people, just the wrong people. we had our differences and well, marienne, i really am trying to be a better man. KEYWORD: TRYING, because love goddamn quinn doesn’t make it easy. but for you, marienne . . . for you, i will listen to her apologies i know she doesn’t mean because she’d do it again if she knew about us, about you, and i will give her a smile that just barely touches a softness in my eyes as i look at her. “hey,” my voice holds a similar softness, my hand caressing her cheek, and i even seem to welcome her lips against mine despite the lack of warmth i feel. “hey, it’s okay. we’re going to be fine.”













