Jan 28, 2022
realizing that 90% of my people pleasing behavior comes from a mix of the way i was socialized (social skills “therapy”) combined with “i want to be a nice person” and a lot of social learned helplessness and that i should Probably go to Actual therapy to work on how to Not Do That Anymore because i keep getting walked over in relationships 🙃
#rin original#venty stuff#it's the middle of the night and i cant sleep#so you're getting Rin Rambles About Trauma Time#it really isn't possible to have a non-traumatized autistic adult huh#either it's peers bullying you or it's adults bullying you#on a sliding scale of obviousness/sinisterness#anyway im gonna try and sleep again but i am expecting to wake up at 4 am again#because that's been happening All Week!#yayyyyy
