#venting things

Awhile ago I finally told my parents I wasn’t a Christian anymore. They took it well enough, my dad’s been cool about it. My mom keeps telling me to keep the faith and praising Jesus and thank god this and that whenever we’re on the phone lately.

I get it, she’s worried about me. But it’s like, she keeps doing it when I’m literally at my lowest moods.

A friend of mine said it best awhile ago:

well, it maybe the fact that i’m withdrawn and suffering from imposter syndrome my whole life and i’m pessimistic and cynical, so i have very little say for the matter anymore.

shit, what was i talking about? right, audience.

i dunno, i’m just writing this to let some things out.

again, i’ve accepted the two quotes above and let my cynism and pessimism take over me. 

I just wanna curl up in a blanket burrito and eat snacks, why is that so much to waaaant? DX

Heuuuuuuuuuuuugggghhhhhh

Tomorrow I work 9-1 it’s a short four hour shift but after that I’ll be a REALLY busy 

11:30 - 7 Breaking - Monday 4:30 - 6:30 GTG Class for Customer Service since I hit 2 months at my job Wednesday I’m off *sigh of relief*  11:30 - 7:30 - Thursday & Friday  and I picked up at 9-5 on Saturday because the lady who was working with me last night hated the shift and the place she was scheduled at so I plucked it up

that was not my original schedule I wasn’t scheduled to work Monday I traded my Wednesday for it due to my friend needing Monday off. 

I have issues with girls messaging me and asking to trade shifts if you have a VALID reason to need a change I’ll get that and accept it and Trade. IF you are trading a 5 hour shit shift asking me for my 8 hour shift I will flat out tell you no or say I can’t do it. 

I am not about to lose out on 3 hours of pay because you think or assume something about me and decide to ASK me for my shift. Bitch back off I have bills to pay legit shit I’ve got Medical bills, Credit Card Bills, and a life.  Money don’t grow on trees and I’m not about to keep asking my grandmother to fund my debt that I created. 

I ain’t my sister.