#veent

It feels

Obviously disgusting,

VIVIDLY BLOOMING

HYSTERIC!

Horribly NICE

THE POLLENS COME OUT,

it feels so DEATHLY LIVING,

I AM WITH THE POLLENS

These roots goes everywhere to little DIRTY FILTHY CRACKS

To beautifully DULL AND GREY sunshine,

The pollens, they smell so..

SO SWEETLY ROTTEN,

THEY TASTE OF HORRIDLY COMFORTING,

DELUSIONALLY UNCOMFORTING,

THEY TASTE OF FLESH, AND OF

BUT I AM NOT PART

I REFUSE

ITS SO AGONIZING TRUTH,

THE LIES WERE SO-

THE SURFACE,

There are reasons why for so long my channel didn't include a single bit of Fandoms

It's because I hate them.

As great as it was to be part of them, I never truly reached out in them.

When I joined the DanPlan fandom, it was a change. I was so happy. I met people and talked and my channel actually got views! And people were saying they actually enjoyed my content!

I was so happy, then I wasn't

When the New Year started, it was great.

I was at the top of my game, I was estatic to go back to school at get through all those obsticals in front of me.

Then Stephen left DanPlan

And it revealed to me so much.

When Stephen uploaded that video, I watched it with tears, but I understood and was proud of him for being able to make such a huge change.

To move on.

I knew Daniel had done bad, but I wanted to wait. Because I trust Daniel, I believe he will go out there and apologize.

Because I feel in someway, Daniel and I are very alike.

Its why he's my favourate, and why it hurt me to see all those comments from the new DanPlan vid.

People went haywire.

And I could understand that, I could understand their rage, I felt that rage to.

Because it felt like betryal. From someone I looked up to and trusted, to someone I felt was a lot similar to me.

But it hurt as well, for people not to give Daniel a chance. For people not to let Daniel apologize and try to make it right.

Hell, it hasn't even been a day and there are comments showing up on MY VIDEOS, Screaming at me how much they hate Daniel, that they want me to take these disrespectful videos down.

My hardwork got caught in the crossfire.

Because people couldn't let others make mistakes.

Because people are impatient, and don't want to wait for others to apologize.

Hell, you guys didn't even give HOSUH a chance to talk.

Screaming in the comments won't change the fact Stephen is gone.

Shouting at Daniel won't fix his mistakes.

Yelling at Me won't make it any better.

I'm tired, honestly.

I haven't been taking care of my health, as much as I claim to drink and eat, I haven't.

I probablly only drink a cup a day, and have at least a meal but that would be it. Unless I was told or forced, I would only have dinner and some water after being asked.

I'm sorry but I can't push myself into another EddsWorld, I can't push myself into another fandom that will choke me.

I can't do this again

So I won't.

I'm still going to be here, I'll still support DanPlan, and I'll still wait for Daniel and Hosuh side of the Story.

But I won't let myself be pulled into another betryal.

I stand with Stephen, But I will wait for Daniel.

I won't let someone not be given the chance to apologize and work on themselves, and I won't let someone be held back in a toxic past.

My heart stays with Hosuh and the animators, who were also caught in the crossfire.

They do so much for us and I pray that they'll be okay, because they are also such a big part of DanPlan, even if their not on the screen all the time.